Tomorrow Last Day 2008 lu~~~~~

Just now when i checked my mail, i realize my friend sent me a mail with the title "Tomolo Last Day 2008". At first, I thought it was somekind of new year wish or e-card for me. -.- turn out it's something like a diary.. a flash back of what have you did throughout the year. Well, proudly to say she did very well and already registered with her bf as husband and wife too lol.

So, even though my achievement not as good as hers, I would also like to list out too =P (muka tidak malu lol)

January 2008.
** Struggling with my new job in new place.
**Overnight at oil palm estate alone with my accountant for year end stock checking for the first time in my life.

February 2008
**Manage to sleep away my eye bags during cny. (well if im not mistaken, cny in Feb'08 eh..? lol)

March 2008
** Manage to rush my accounts on time to be submit for auditing.

April 2008
** I be good girl for not making fool to people during April Fool day.

May 2008
** I think i dont have achievement in this month eh.. hmmm been sitting in front of this pc monitor for 10 minutes, I still cant figure out what have I achieved. So i Skip this month.

June 2008
** I sambut Gawai? LoL joking..no lah..

July 2008
** .........................

August 2008
** zzzzzzzzzzzzzz

September 2008
** "Yawn"..........

October 2008
** FINALLY, IM HERE!!!!!!!!!!!! It's my favourite Month..... muahahahaa..because It's my Birth month =P. Here..my achievement is.. the birthday present this year is much better than last year, so thank you everyone for your kind consideration. =P Tq tq *bow*

November 2008
** I manage to make a surprise for my best buddy birthday. lol

December 2008
** I realised I have a lot clothes in my wardrobe ..oh wat an achievement!! LoL

So that's all.. Adios and Good night and have a nightmare ahead 2009. Opss wrong..have a great year ahead for 2009. Grow older and wiser please people.

Ergh!! Why Not In English??!

A friend introduced to me an online shopping website for bags. Well, the bags not bad and cheap and the quality is trustable.
But somehow the website is all in chinese words which is a total nightmare for me as I never received any chinese education back in school. =.="
I manage to ask a friend helped me to order from the website.. and the bag nice lo.~~ lol

Haih..I tried the yahoo babel fish translation but not working so well.. it cant translate the whole page only some part of the page not even reach 10% =.=" aihhh so troublesome.

Should I be glad that it's all in chinese words so that I cant shop inside as I dont know what or where to click? (cuz you have to join in their member club to purchase the goods).
Or should I be whining and sighing for not able to buy stuff in there?
Erghh..such a good website , they should make it in English version bah =.=" zzzzz

here is the website that I have been talking about. Check it Out lo~

http://www.shop.niceshop.my/

It's BecauSe Of You, That Has Made me Today.

Have anyone of you somehow changed to be a better person, or a worse person, just because of someone?
Im not sure have I ever changed, but now I am sure I already has changed. Im not who I am before by this days. But more to who I wish I want to be. Should I feel proud? Glad? Happy? Relief? Satisfied? Or should I be worrying now.

Im not sure either. LoL Till this state..im still in an uncertain situation -_-"

That's Life Lo..What Else can It Be?

Yeah, today is Xmas eve.. well nothing special to me..it's just like any other normal weekdays for me. Tomorrow will be Xmas and it's public holiday, Well, just another off day for me to get more sleep.. LoL

I would also like to annouced that my female cat has gave birth to 3 white kittens yesterday, dont know at what time as all of us went to work already. LoL..
I wonder how will the kittens attitude be, as the mother is Pretty and Lazy and the Father is Handsome and Lazy. LoL..
I hate lazy cat , and when I found out the cat is lazy , normally I would just give it away =P let the next caretaker think of what to do LoL..

I think, this year, Xmas wishes from young and old all over the world would most probably be the same.
"May Peace be around Us, May Economy Grow Better, So that our Daily life will improve and our children will not Suffer"

Life sucks for the time being, and so does the people around me =P

What Label are You? LoL

I think everything change a lot ..including world economy not to mention people's mindset. Right now, for those who like to stay at home during any events or occasion, you will be label as "BORING".

For those who like to go out no matter what occasion, will be label as "WILD".

For those who like to go out during special occasion only, will be label as "STINGY".

MUAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
And lately I have been label as BORING. -_-"
While I got friend who say to me , " Is there any law saying that you MUST go out during any occasion?"

LOLLOL well he got a point there though xD~

Sigh Sigh Sigh.............................

Work stress really killing me. Today is Friday and Im totally low batt at office when it's around 3pm. I just cant wait to go back home and sleep.

Arghh ..

Somemore unhappy things happened to me making me really pissed off. >.<

How can someone cant diffrenciate between e-parcel and poslaju?? DAMN!

That guy is so going to get some "punch" from me tomorrow.

Thanks for the Karaoke.

Last night, went out with bunch of friends for dinner.. Very funny is, the 1st place we plan to go, is under renovation =.=. Then change to 2nd place..but it's closed. =.=" Then , just eat at the place nearby cuz really hungry and lazy to find more places to go.

After dinner.. one rise up... and says.. " Let's go Karaoke!!, You call ur mum and let her know u will be home by 11pm"
and me .. =.=" aiks.. karaoke on weekday? im still have to wake up early and go to work the next day wor.. But no choice.. im not driving and following their car.. lol..

I never been to karaoke for like 2 years already. The last time I have been to karaoke was at KL, Red Box located at Petaling Jaya , The Curve. Pretty nice lo...probably that time the place still new.. dont know how it looks like now.

So, Last night went to Rex Box =P hahaha not Red but Rex instead. =P
Enjoying the night singing ..
Thank you for the songs that you guys sang and dedicate to me. Im okay boh, not doing too bad, just struggling with work stress lately. Have to rush my account for auditing -_-" erghh such a pain.

Time to buy myself temporary happiness during public holidays XD

It's Finally Over!

Yessssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh my nightmare has finally over!!

I can sleep well tonight.!!

I have confessed with my boss today of my mistake.. Well, at least he didnt bomb me =P lucky me pheewwzzz

So, everything become smooth again..no more big problems!!!!!!

sha lalala shalala in the morning~~~~~~~~~~~~~

ToTo God is All I Need!!!!! Erghhhh

YES, from the title , it tells it all. I dont need to say More.
I need more money and only way is TOTO!!!
I dont have car, I cant get any part time job.
So?
Dont you think that's the only way? LoL

So 1 day if you ever see a car on the road with a sticker saying " Thank You Lord for the Toto"
That's me =P

Another Bad Year End For Me.

I think this year is the worse year ever in my period of life , well dont count from the day I was born la.. count from the day I got my first job. Haihh So stressful with my current job feel like jumping down from the building and say GoodBye. LoL

Im making a Big mistake in my job few days ago and yes my boss havent found out yet and I made up my mind just now when I woke up from my unpeaceful sleep that I will confess with My boss my mistake. Haihh probably get fired. LoL

Well, lately a lot company been trying their best to find ways to cut down the cost and Im just giving my company a chance to cut down some. =.=" Really "soi"..

My other branch already issue letter saying next month will have salary deduction but my side here still no news yet.. Sigh.. pretty scary.. imagine your salary being cut off between RM200-RM300. That's quite a lot .. time to eat bread and get slim xD

Another Sunday , Another Story.

Another Sunday,
Another Story,

Story that tells by Me,
'Bout my Life , 'Bout my Friends, 'Bout my relationship
'Bout my All.

I hereby wishing You all the best,
Where Ever I may Be.
I might be Leaving without a words, But
that doesn't mean I dont care.

To the one I once loved,
You left me , for someone better
But I would Like you to Know,
That no matter who you with Now,
You will have my Blessings, always..
Thank you for giving me all the Sweet Memories,
Which I dont think I would ever be able to experience it Again.

To the one that once cared for me,
There is no words that is Great enough for me to express my gratitude to yo' all.
Thank you is the most I could say.

To my beloved Mother,
Although you're not reading this Blog by your Pathetic Daughter(sadly),
I would still type it here, That you will always and always be the Top Mother
of all Time.

Life is pity,
Life is sad,
Life is sometimes happy,
Life is sometimes bored.
But as One has once said to me,
How your life color turn out to be,
It's all depends ..on.. Y.O.U.

Compare Compare and Compare.

Is comparing Good? Yes, it is Good but still it depends. Not everytime we compare is Good.
We must compare prices when we buy things.. Well this is normal and this is what we should do actually. But when we started to compare other things, such as relationships, friends.. It wont be that healthy.

I cant deny , that I ever compare my relationship, My life and My friends. And Yes I am comparing it even Now. Feel terrible but I just cant Help it. Things never Go on Your way and I should learn to accept it.. But kinda weird to think that WHY everytime they never go along the way ..sure got something gets in the way. Aihh..

Feeling Pissed and cursing around liaw. blablablabla

Time to getaway from all this "pain" . Quite Moment is Needed.

Landslide Nightmare, Are We Going to Have 1 as Well?

Landslide happened at Bukit Antarabangsa is really a nightmare for every Malaysian. All I can do here is pray and hope no one is deeply injured during the landslide. From what I know from TV news, the side happened this morning at 4am due to the heavy rain since last night.

The scene right now at Bukit Antarabangsa is really scary. You can see it from News online .. It's a big news now. Government says, private sector should not push government to approved any housing development plan near hills or mountains.

Aih...dont you think it's too late now? After such incident happened, only then you realised that such development plan is dangerous? Aihh *sigh*

They said, probably 7 people still trapped under the soil inside their bangalow. =.=" Freaky.
I then suddenly recalled back that my town also has such development. o.o" Will they stop it now or keep developing it? Aihhhh.. dangerous..

Humans keep Making Mistakes Which Only Give them Temporary Happiness but Permanent Nightmare. Wake up PEople!!!

Aihh Why not jUst Pain Ahead and Die?

Yeah i ate the wrong food mix with the wrong drink and woke up in chest pain and why not dying yet and yes im wondering.

LoL

Menu of the day ,

Pizza with various of meat baked with cheese

Ribena mix with Sprite and Lime.

Side effect,

Chest pain in the morning, blockage of airway in the lungs and vodmiting

Side effect on your mood,

You feel pissed and start cursing around.

NKF Fundraiser In Miri Are Not ConMen.

On the 27th November 2008, while I was busy doing my work at my desk, suddenly 2 young men approached me and started to introduce themselves as fundraiser of NKF. NKF stands for National Kidney Fund. They show me some brochures and stuffs and I also asked them some questions.

Actually this association exist for quite some time already , so I decided to give my support to them. I sign up their ongoing donor form and every month they will deduct RM38 from my Maybank account.

But then, Yesterday, My colleague show me an article from Borneo Post newspaper saying that the fundraisers that come to me are conmen. They cheat people's money saying that the fund is for Miri Dialysis Centre. I think there must be some misunderstanding between the fundraiser statements towards some question being asked by some Mirians.
However, Red Crescent and also Miri Dialysis Centre shouldnt make such statement in the press by saying NKF cheats.

Therefore, last night, I email to NKF centre at which is located at KL, and this morning they give me a call and explain to me. The person said..they were busy answering calls from other people too due to the article in the newspaper. LoL and he said, within these 2 days, they will make a statement to clerify what has happened to clear all the misunderstanding.

So here, if any of you has been approached by such people and If you have already sign up for the on-going donor programme, dont worry, it's just a misunderstanding between the 2 association that such statement appear in newspaper. Be alert to the news within these 2 days. =D

It's All Up to Me to Choose Now.

I hate to make a decision.. Especially the one which will bring a big effect in your whole life till your last breathe.
I know there is nothing perfect in this world that can forever pleases you.
Aihhh *sigh*

Why why why we have to choose? Can we change the imperfections to the level which for us that we consider it as perfect?

Arghhhhhhhhhh Pants ar!!!! >.<"

Okay... Im so so so pissseeeeddddddddddddddddddd
The pants I have now, cant fit liaw.. cuz is S size now im fatter a bit and it doesnt fittttttt soooo weellllll >.<"
Therefore, I have no choice but to hunt new pants.. =.= But..to my dissappoinment...

I take S size.. LoL of course cant fit at all ... I just flip it through not trying it lol waste of time to try something that you know doesnt fit. So , I take M Size.. fine..i manage to pull it up..but cant button it... OKAYYY FINE.. I take L size.. Whoahhhhhhhhh I manage to pull it up..Manage to even Button it up....Butttttttttttttt When I turn around.. =.=" there is a big hole at my back.. ermm
Something wrong with the cutting or it's just that my body size not standard now. LoLlOLOlOlOLOolLOOlL

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh BUt somehow I manage to buy 3 t-shirts.. aihhhh really nowadays... What chinese people say... " Yi fen chien..Yi fen HUo " what you pay is what you get LoL something like this lah , I dont know mUch to Explain..

Aihhhh... but i can tell the t-shirt after 10 washes will die liaw one. LoL So how? Wear Bikini and kain sarung go out then... Save money, and sexier too. O.o" I must be insane for doing that If I ever will.

Spotcheck In the House.! O.o?

Right.. Got spotcheck in my own house. Can You imagine that? Just like in those old school days where teachers and prefects go to each classrooms to check your desk and your bags to see if you carry any penknife or liquid papers. LoL or comic books, magazines, drugs and cigar.

BUt my case now kinda different.. My mum still spotcheck my closet.. not that she dont trust me and want to check to see got weird drugs or what.. LoL
She want to see if I bought any new clothes LOL LOL LOL
Yes, till now she still controlling my finance by lecturing me if she notice I bought a lot of clothes .
Actually I did bought a lot..she notice 1/4 of them.. LoL the others, Is down below the closet drawers she didnt notice MuHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Even my shoes... -_-" aihhhh so old liaw still kena spotcheck..
Today went out kai kai.. Hmmmmm economy not so bad lol..still a lot people buying clothes and junks ..getting ready for christmas i guess -_-

This Christmas, should be at home.. close friends all not around. Bad economy , time to stay at Home and Sleep =P

Cut Cost Saja -_-" Time for a Change~!

Economy is running bad and till today it aint going anywhere better. Haih..*sigh*... I wonder when will it be fine once again..
It's kinda freakin me out when I heard big associations is cutting of cost ..decreasing salary and worst thing is retrenching the staff.
Myself is one of the staff working with big association in town. A little nervous already. All I have is prayers , praying that Im not one of them. Well, so far my company still okay but .. kinda scare too in case the idea also come in mind to the director.

Humans are selfish. They do anything to keep themselves survive in this hectic world.
Well, as we who still has a job here and fixed income every month, we should also do some cut cost thingy =P

Today when I chat with a friend of mine, we came out some crazy ideas of cutting cost as I told him I need to get myself some shirts as mostly of my t-shirts already in an unacceptable situation. LoL Then he said no need buy too much and too expensive. Then I say.. I would probably go for 2 pieces temporary ..LoL
But then, why not just stay at home no need go out. Then no need buy shirts lo.. cuz u're not going out anyway why need shirts? LoL

Whatever occasions, just stay at home. Christmas stay at home, New year stay at home CNY stay at home as well, probably when you die, no one would know as well, cuz cut cost ma.. no funeral going on. XD Lol...!!!
Paper flowers are mostly welcome especially those made from recycle papers LoL now this is extreme.

When go out yamcha..make sure you just yamcha.. means drink.. LoL no eating no junks! afterall yamcha we just have a few sips of our drinks and talk till we feel sien seeing each other face and 1 will rise up to go home and others will follow.LoL If feel hot, it's either we stop by at ABC shop or buy 1 big container Kings brand Ice cream and have few spoons and scoop and eat together instead of going to eat ice creams at Dessert, 3 scoops need Rm11.90++ if Im not mistaken.

No more Mcdonald or KFC, telling yourself, is not we dont have money so that we're not eating is that those food are just not so healthy so we r not buying =P well, that's the way it should be actually. LoL

Online searching for information of doing your own facial. Ask all your girls friends to go your house and do it yourself. One done and the other can help do to the other one. Not really need to go to facial places and waste your money on the products. You can do better at home. And for hair treatment, Go buy the cream. I know it's expensive and big bottles but hey.. u can share it with your gal friends though. Share the cost and have the fun serving each other. Not just fun but also getting you guys closer.

For men, who wasted a lot of money bringing girls to watch movie. Time for a change guys! Download the movie yourself using your desktop or laptop at home. Paying streamyx RM66 for a month is worth it. I know telekom is blocking all the torrent blablablabla but... where do all the shops got all the things for pirated CD VCD? There is still a way..i still got friends manage to download movies and songs using torrent. So can You! And you can watch movie at home and bring your gf or bf along and can watch with whole family if you want. Not just that, If the quality of your movie is Good, might as well burn it out and selling it to your friends. =P There are always lazy people available to buy the CD VCD DVD from you. Trust me. XD

My office anties, they cut cost in their own self expenses.. Now they dont eat rice for lunch , just eat bread or sometime no eat at all.. They said, save money for children tuition fees. Anything can be cut cost, but not in children educations. Now that's very touching i guess. Reminds me on how my mum save money to buy more books for me when I was still studying last time.

Seriously if i dont always shop for clothes ,etc every month after my payday, I should rich enuf LoL LoL but yeah..humans.. bad eyes bad hands .. LoL
When come to a time like this.. Well, disciplines is very needed and time to change and time to stay at home liaw on weekends =P

Cry Me A River

Dont misunderstood my title.. It's not about any sad things happened over me but rather a sad news for all Mirian. I really wish that I could cry a river out to save our river.
I grow up seeing the river flow and listening on how it become No.1 dirtiest river in our country.

Yeah laa.. Im talking about the Miri River..now no more liaw.. dying... I feel like can hear the river mourning.. screaming for help each time the lorry pour down the sand to cover the river up making it a sandy land.

My office just next to the river.. I see how they destroying the river.. Why? Why take away our river? It may not be the cleanest river of all but .. It's naturally there all along..Why take it away from us? Our children will no longer know the difference between river and sea.
Below are the pictures before and after .

Before

After

LoL so sorry for the reflection image from my hp =P ehehe I snap it this afternoon.. during raining days from my office 3rd floor, but i think you can see the sand there lo..covering the river liaw..these 2 days the lorry no more pouring sand on it ..probably due to raining day.

Surprise...suprise!!!!

Last night, I joined a gathering.. not any normal gathering..is eating gathering lol..is seriously u eat till u want puke that type of gathering.... Well, not so far from my house lo.. 5 and half minutes drive away...

What surprising me is ...
Not the food..
Not the place..
Not the tauke of the shop..
Not the gift (ok la..part of the surprise also, never expect ada mug)
But it's one of the attendance.. that is surprising me.

AHHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHA My best collegemate is there... akaiiii i really cant believe my eyes.. I havent seen her for a year.. =.=" and this girl hardly contact one also somemore live at the other end of Miri while I live at the other end of Miri too. =.=" Well, i dont want expect much from her cuz she has a big commitment , she has a cute son , and yea..she married liaw de.
Feel so good that can see her last night.

Level 2 is Haunted (O.O)"

Yes, as you can see from the topic of my blog today is about haunted place in the building where I work. The place where I work consist of Grd floor, 1st Floor , 2nd floor and 3rd floor. The whole building belong to a same boss while the offices and companies renting inside this building belongs to the same boss and his siblings..

What I observed after a year I worked in this company is, Staffs from offices in Level 2 are weirdos.. totally weird and really pissing me off. So, what so weird about them?

First, They are totally rude.
Second, They dress abnormal. Some dress like going to pub, Some dress like going to bed.
Third, They like to look at me at 1 kind.
Forth, They smile in front of you and stab u In front of you too. Well, this is odd LoL Getting attention or what?
Fifth, They like to act rich , eat rich , even they dont capable too.

I guess that's all I would like to list out, wouldnt want to say so much. Conclusion is , they are all weird. I was thinking, probably the 2nd floor is somehow haunted. Yeah, the environment inside there is totally weird lo.. No fresh air and the position is soooo not strategic.

I dont like Level 2 and the living things there. Unfortunately I am the landlady of the building where Im in charge of the building thingy and rental... zzzz Well I have an accountant above me in charge for all these as well so.. Im still ok with it. Sigh.. Bunch of freaks... I never wanted to blog of such thing but this week, they have made me so mad! so damn fcking mad with these bunch of zombies!!!

Errhhhhhh might as well hang some garlics on their door =.=

Wat a Day!

Why so weird of having an annual leave taken? LoL yeah I on-leave today =P 1 day going down..another 10 days to go.. w00t. I mean my balance leave still got 10 days.. =_=" not that I took 11 days leaves. =P
Well, ever since I worked in this new company, things seems to be just fine.. Life seems to be easier a little but still.. When things get easier, it wont be easier for long and new things will come up to burden you.

Actually, what I have earned right now should be enough for me to cover my own expenses and household expenses. Who knows, economy started to drop hell down since June 2008 if Im not mistaken. People starting to lose their houses and cars. Children have to stop going to tuition centres because their tuition fees will be going to household expenses. Some have to use bus to go home instead of school bus as the school bus fees also rise up.

I really wish economy will go Better next early year.. A lot of people is in trouble including me, although I dont really say much and show it on my face. As I know, No One can Help me But God.
He's all I have..

I Shouldn't

I shouldn't blame on Life
I shouldn't blame on you.

I shouldn't have fall for you
and I shouldn't have said those words.
I shouldn't say "I Love You" as I'm unsure.
I shouldn't, I just shouldn't have.

I shouldn't leave you like this
but seriously, I dont know what I should be doing.
I shouldn't cried, and you shouldn't have fall for my tears.

Im Free-er!!

Do you ever felt like your shoulder is getting heavier each day as if you are carrying rocks on it all the time? Or do you ever felt like your heart beat is beating super slow like you're dying?

Yes, I believe some of you have come to such situation as me .. But somehow, with God help, and my prayers has been answered and having Faith as well, I manage to overcome it and today I officially announce to all of you who has been paying attention to my pathetic blog, I am a Free Woman now and Im much lighter. (still a bit heavier because of work stress) But I wont let work stress to tackle me down too much. =D

Today, I went out with my "long" distance half brother LoL (actually Mirian but work in Bintulu) to shopping. I manage to finally get myself a bag to use. It's a nice bag. I bought it from his advice and also his friend advice. ( the one who drives us around , paiseh ). The size average but not suitable for shopping spree because I have habit of putting things that I bought into the beg and carry it instead of holding the plastic bag in hand. So.. most probably I'll get a bigger bag for shopping purposes during christmas. There should be another SALE spree at Parkson =P

Have a nice Monday tomorrow as the going get tough, the tough gets going!

My view on Anugerah Skrin 2008.

Okay, let's just be direct. First of all, from what I notice some actresses clothes really so unacceptable. Low cost gown. Lol while for actors..same goes to them.
Some still able to wear nice.. silk material is a lot to be seen this year.

For actresses gowns... i notice quite some of them having the same collar style..probably from the same designer or maybe this year is Trendy for such collar .

For the Guest MC.. some look so dumb on the stage... making cold jokes but Most probably they are nervous as most of them are 1st time on stage to give speech. For those old artists.. giving speech and making spontaneous jokes like Afdlin Shauki and Aznil Nawawi.. is just a piece of peanut.. LoL ..kacang je...

Erra Fazira look fabulous.. she said she pregnant already and her gown look nice on her! Matched from head to toe. xD

Que Haidar won an award.. Good for him... he get he next step to get higher.. Rosyam Nor won again .. not bad not bad..he show that he maintain his professional acting skills lol.

While for the entertainment tonight..we have few singers singing... Jaclynn Victor! still so superb.. nice outfits and she still so power in her singing and so does Kak Adibah Nor.. love both of you.. true singer..lovely!

Btw.. do u guys realize Mcdonald has a new advertisement about their Value Meal Madagascar 2 Escape to Africa..damn funny.. " I like to move it , move it.." xD xD hillarious..

Okay.. =X im a bit running out of topic .. xDahaks.. advertisement bah.. you watch anugerah skrin oso got advertisement right? =P and then the cutest advertisement for me is the Nippon Paint ad.. all the small small colorful thingy alien painting the town like rainbow..soooo cute xD

Oh, forgot to add in 1 thing...Our first Malaysian Astronaut has been invited as the Guest MC =_=" he seems stiffy on stage.. why on earth is he invited? I just dont get it.. From doctor profession become astronaut and now celebrity? lol Well, i think Malaysian just like to give chances to People to try on NEW things lol.
The main MC..female Nurul Syuhada if i spell it right..look fabulous as usual .. the guy..Ramli if im not mistaken..kinda funny...
He said 1 sentence " I dont know how to comment people actually...I just Mambo saje... Have confident..talk and end show and get pay" LoL !!! AHHAHA the best tip to be a best MC LoL

Special award for tonight goes to Yasmin Ahmad.. Best movie director of malaysia.. Her movies are such as Mukhsin.. love story between 2 children.. Sepet..love story between a malay girl and a chinese boy.. and another 1.. kinda forgot.. but the latest upcoming..will be Muallaf if i spell it right... shud be another nice malay movie.

Actually she won a lot of awards from overseas..probably this anugerah skrin is nothing for her lol but she seems so happy though and keep saying Thank God. ahahaha

As for the best malay drama.. as I expected... Suara Saleha won the award xD really a nice malay drama...Fauziah Ahmad Daud was the main actress, Raja Azura also in it.. lovely combination of actor and actresses.. good storyline and a drama with a lot of effort ..worth winning.

As the penutup tirai..we have Dato Siti to sing ... she look more and more like Anita Sarawak.. =.=" her outfit..aduh... really menutup aurat.. @@ cant even see her fingers only her face lol hmmmm not yet pregnant oo.. Or she gave birth liaw -_- im not sure..didnt follow her news so much after she married.

Well, that's all .. simple award giving ceremony from our beloved country.

Go Bama Go!!

xD 5th November, right after my lunch, I went to the one and only pc provided in my company with Internet services. I went to check the result of the 44th America President Election thingy. xD xD How glad I am to know that Obama won the elections. Pheewwzz
Well, yes I agree that he doesnt have much experiences in some certain things but like every American, they wanted a change and so do I although Im not American. =P

I have been thinking and questioning myself a long long time ago when I watch an English Movie about African slaves in America and how they fought and gain their respect and freedom as a free citizen in America. I did asked myself, will they ever have Black people as president? as their leader? Well, since they say they are the same as the white people.. so ..Will they have Black people as President, then? Hahahaha Well, Thank God I get the chance to see America getting their first black president and rewrite the History of America xD

I just hope, that he will keep his promises about helping the poor and average family in the states and bringing back those poor soldiers in Iraq. Why on earth do I care about their nation and not care about my own nation here in Malaysia? It's not that I dont bother, But for what I can see.. If changes can be made as Obama promised, I believe world will change better and everyone will live happier.

Just hope that the world economy will go better slowly.. I dont want to lose my job lol.

Becuz He is Hot and Cold LOl!

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes
Yeah, you PMS like a bitch
I would know

Yeah, you always think
Always speak cryptically
I should know
That you're no good for me

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

You, you don't really wanna stay, no You,
but you don't really wanna go, oh

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

We used to be just like twins, so in sync
The same energy now's a dead battery
Used to laugh 'bout nothing
Now you're plain boring I should know
That you're not gonna change

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

You, you don't really wanna stay, no
You, but you don't really wanna go,
oh Someone call the doctor
Got a case of a love bipolar
Stuck on a rollercoaster
Can't get off this ride
You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up You,
you don't really wanna stay, no You,
but you don't really wanna go, oh

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down, down, down, down...

I came to know this song when my brother download this tone so I went to the youtube to see for the mtv and search for the full lyrics.. seems nice to me =P

hot and cold by Katy Perry.

EMERGENCY TASK! ERGHH >.<

So dizzy of me yesterday morning when I woke up feel like skipping my work and telling my manager that I couldnt make it for the day, but I still wake up in the end and ready for work.
Doing my daily work slowly suddenly a very fast pace footsteps walk towards my table and say..

"Are You free??!! " Me " err what's wrong?" " The camp payroll system ran off and I want you to go up with the IT dude to see the problem" Me " err but I wearing skirt right now and I dont think it is a proper attire for a jungle trip " "AiYA.......... who cares of that? Just wear your office slippers and bring your stuff will do. You are using Unser to go you know. " Me " =_= fine. wait me a while "

And yes.. For the first time, I have been assigned with an emergency task , I dont even have chances to prepare myself at all and I have to wear my skirt and office attire with office slipper with the other hand holding a plastic bag contained my heels =_=" zzz Because I will be heading home straight from Miri-Bintulu road , I dont want to go back office again. zzzz

When I was sitting in the car, I know camp people will look at me one kind. Who knows when I reach Batu Niah Ngu's food court, the people there already look at me at one kind. HAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAH so hillarious !!!!!!!! Goodness me
Guess they live there at the jungle too long till never see a girl wear office attire go camp LOL

Unfortunately, we couldnt fix the fcking problem.. Thanks to the carelessness of the IT guy from Kuching HQ. >.<>.<"

I dont Believe You

I don’t mind it
I don’t mind at all
It’s like you’re the swing set
And I’m the kid that falls
It’s like the way we fight
The times I’ve cried
We come to blows
And every night
The passion’s there
So it’s got to be right
Right?

No I don’t believe you
When you say don’t come around here no more
I won’t remind you
You said we wouldn’t be apart
No I don’t believe you
When you say you don’t need me anymore
So don’t pretend to
Not love me at all

I don’t mind
I still don’t mind at all
It’s like one of those bad dreams
When you can’t wake up
It looks like you’ve given up
You’ve had enough
But I want more
No I won't stop
Because I just know You’ll come around Right?
No I don’t believe you
When you say don’t come around here no more
I won’t remind you
You said we wouldn’t be apart

No I don’t believe you
When you say you don’t need me anymore
So don’t pretend to Not love me at all
Just don’t stand there and watch me fall
Because I, because I still don’t mind at all
It’s like the way we fight
The times I’ve cried
We come to blows
And every night
The passion's there
So it’s got to be right,
Right?

No I don’t believe you
When you say don’t come around here no more
I won’t remind you
You said we wouldn’t be apart
No I don’t believe you
When you say you don’t need me anymore
So don’t pretend to
Not love me at all

I don’t believe you

Something nice from P!nk lately..lovely song..

It's the Past That i'm Not Dare to Face

I believe everyone has their own past story I have my own too. A lot.
I was checking my hotmail today as my brother asked me to help him apply a membership in local Pathlab to get cheap rate for any screening package. I want to login to my account but I forgot the passwords and username. So, I have no choice but to check back all the email notification sent by Pathlab to me in my hotmail.

Too bad, my hotmail too much junk mail and important mail mixed all together thousands of them starting from early year of 2007. I have no choice but to scroll a page by a page to look for the email I want. Through the scrolling.. I saw a lot of email from friends, even boyfriends lol I wanted to click them and read , but.. in the end I changed my mind.

Say Im coward , chicken or lizard or whatever , you just name it.. Im just dont want to read back those emails as it bring back the sweet memories which turn sour in the end. People say, take bad memory as guidance for us to walk right in future.. But, of course, depends on what bad memories or bad experience.

Thank you readers.. whoever you are especially =.= and mojojo.. ahahaha both of you debating of what I need is it? I did have the motivation book actually..but never work on me =P I rather eat pill and sleep probably make me better then reading the book. LOL cuz my mind messy and whatever I read, it just cant get into my brain. When my mind messy, I will find place to pour it out, when I fail to find a place to pour out.. I will end up bla bla whining and grinning in the blog.
I admit that this is a very pathetic blog.. I do hope one day I manage to delete this one and create a happy blog instead.. but now, just not the right time at all. Probably you will say..there is no such thing as right time or not, it's the matter of guts blablabla taking actions blablabla.

Strong character people would go on tell me these which is not going to work any much on me. Day pass by a day after another day.. I know one day I will be happier I need time to find what I need =D

Im A proBlemAtic Person SomeOne Kill Me please

I am a person not worth living on this pity earth
I hurt people that Loved me and I doesnt even feel wanted to care more
I dont know how to divide my love and care among them but put all in just 1 , which I think It's Normal till the day I realize, it's not normal at all.

I know what I want , and I know I wont get it no matter how , as that's how life is. So I tend to accept just what come near me Which In the end I fail to do what I have promise myself. It's just not hurting me, but the worse is, it hurt the person which doesnt even deserve all this sufferings.

I wanted to pay back what I did wrong but somehow, I dont think there is a Turning Back in Anything Anymore. Hate me, Kill Me, Do as You Like as I know, I did a lot of crime and sins to All of yOu.

I know there is no Point of confessing it all here as It wont do anything much but at least I let the people who reading this pity blog of mine that I Am Not A Good Person As I Look At.

Tease me
Curse Me
I dont even care anymore.

I have been selfish in a good and bad way, stubborn ass in a good and bad way too and I wanted to change but cant. I feel uncomfortable in changing and therefore , I maybe change back to the normal Me.
A Bad News for some people, but also good news for some people.

Stop Torturing Yourself Dear and Love Yourself.

I dont Bother Liao

Yes!!!!!!!!!!! I dont bother anymore right now. Been tired follow people's finger to live my life. Makes me feel like Im a Zombie. I know what I want, I know what doesnt suit me.. I want to be Happy. Do I asked a lot ?

Huh!! Crazy bunch of zombies I live in with. Time to break the fcking Tradition ***Hole!!

BreaKing ThrouGh?

How nice would it be when you say to yourself that you are breaking through, that you will break through the shadow which you claim has overshadowed you all this while keeping you from reaching something better and then you really is ABLE to break it through.

Today, a person came to ask me to change. Saying it is easy for somebody but when come to realising it, it's like carrying a thousand tonnes on your shoulder or finding a needle in the football field. Can you see how hard it is? I dont came from Good Life but I do hope I will one day live a Good Life.

Years pass by and all I can see and all I can cheer about is seeing people around me having good life and the saddest part is , Im not cheering my own life.
I learn to love myself, my life so that I am able to love others and respect their life.
I do hope I can someday get a good change in my life. Im really tired always whining , people around me will get tired to hear as well.

My Dearest Phillip is Back.!

On the night of 9th October 2008, while I was having my nice lovely dinner, suddenly a loud POP sound came from my computer CPU and the electricity in my whole house died.
My computer, named Phillip, DIED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Arghhhhhhhhhh for few days I live in misery, my mind been thinking about it. I wonder what cause the damage.. a lot a lot of questions pop out in my mind. I am so sad that I sms everyone which Im close or quite close about it. It's like you have lost a best friend as Phillip, is one of my sources of Joy. the one and Only!

Luckily God answered my prayer and He sent down a Saviour yesterday to revive Phillip and Now............ Phillip is back to normal. =D I am so so so happy that I smile to sleep and woke up in a smile today too.. as I know, I can once again sit here talk crap after my dinner. =P

How can I Live without you, Phillip.

Thank You All!

Dear all friends online and offline, close or not close, thank you for your gifts, cakes and birthday wishes.
Feel nice when people that dont know you much also email and wished you happy birthday.. hahahahaha

Well, Greenpeace wished me, Jobstreet wished me, Playpark forum wished me too! AHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA
how cute. LOL well, not too bad.. still got people far far away wishing me lol

Anyway, May God Bless all of you and May the world soon turn to the better. =D

??!!!Hottest Hairstyle in coming 2009??!!

HAHHAHHAHA i dont know which kinda hairstyle will be the hottest one in the coming year 2009.. probably punk. lol

For me, if you want to change your hairstyle drastically, you have to makeover your wardrobe as well.. i cant imagine myself having a punk hair but wearing some cutie dress =.=" looks weird on me but looks good on some other girls lo.

I cant wait for year end to makeover my hairstyle once again... now im thinking of what kind of hair i want to get. at first, i want to go braid my hair like those Africans people, but, thinking of my mickey mouse ears, i think it will look funny =.="

Hairstyle research will still continue till I found the right hairstyle xD

[ female punk, one of the style i have in mind for the moment]

Go to Camp Site again =.="

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS im going to the oil palm estate camp site again tomolo. it will be my 2 days 1 night trip........ eeeeeeeee hate hate hate... at this kinda time, new stock of clothes just being updated.......... im sure going to miss another good cheap batch of clothes.........

By saturday......... =.= left only those lousy clothes for me to cuci mata......... T.T
It's God will I guess.......... i told myself wont spend again on clothes...... hmmmmmmmmmm
still.......... hand itchy o. =P

anyway......im off to bed liao...it will be an early trip tomolo...

The Magical of Online Shopping!!

How nice when you found a website which you can shop safely and can be trusted. It's like when you buy something and you will feel like you are waiting for a christmas present.

There is one time when my "brother" asked his friend who went to KL for holiday to buy back some shirts and a pair of shoes for him. He keep telling me once every 2 days like that saying that he just cant wait for his friend to come back and bring him his stuff. I said to him.. what's so happy about? It's not like it's free stuff for you, you still have to pay for it. LOL
He even countdown when and when he is going to come home. He also followup with his friend what his friend has bought -_-

So, when myself went to buy some stuff online, dont know why, I just feel super excited. I just cant wait for it to come. And I finally realize how he felt the other time LOLLLLLLLL
It's true.. it's like waiting for the santa(postman/courier man) to send us our "present".
Happy online shopping everyoneeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Just a click away, You get what U want in a ZAP!

SIEN ARRR!! URGGHHHHHHHHHH

To those non-chinese readers, Sien means like giving up + getting bored with something. Lately, I have been very into online shopping .. However, I didnt manage to shop for anything.. that's because im too Slow.. and the stock running out everytime I wanted to place my order..

So ......... GOD DAMN PISSED OFFFFFFFFFFF
I just checked my mail, and yes they finally reply my order, the send the mail twice , but I only able to check my mail at night time during weekdays. I dont have internet connection in my office pc which is really pissing me off. I wanted to use the internet pc in office in the afternoon after lunch hour but too bad , somebody else is using it. =_=

So just now, I went to check the website and the clothes become no more stock, SOLD OUT, I guess they sold it to somebody else because I didnt reply their email as they sent in twice. -_-
Is it God Will?
Sigh..
-_-

The Best of Me That You Can Get.

I know I may not have anything that is the Best in me that you could have from me.
I know I may not have the perfect personality that you expected all this while.
I know I may think in an idiot , childish way, but that's me.

I maybe too un-selfish, too un-evil, that you misunderstand that I never wanted to Own you.
But you are wrong as those are not the way I own somebody.
I put my trust and faith in you as it's the best way to create peace among you and me.

I told myself if I fail this, I wont be taking any chances to involve again.
As probably I am just not meant to be this way, but other way around.
Everyone has a purpose in this life, either it's a wonderful or pity life that God has given to each of us, and I will find my chances to pursue it.

The Balance Sheet's of Life.

Our Birth is our Opening Balance,
Our Death is our Closing Balance.

Our Prejudiced Views are our Liabilities,
Our Creative Ideas are our Assets.

Heart is our Current Asset,
Soul is our Fixed Asset,
Brain is our Fixed Deposit,
Thinking is our Current Account.

Achievements are our Capital,
Characters & Morals, our Stock in Trade,
Friends are our General Reserves,
Values and Behaviors are our Good will.

Patience is our Interest Earned,
Love is our Dividend,
Children are our Bonus Issues,
Education is Brands/Patents.

Knowledge is our Investment,
Experiences is our Premium Account
The Aim is to tally the balance sheet accurately.
The Goal is to get the best presented Account Award.

Some very Good and very Bad things
The most destructive habit, WORRY
The greatest joy, GIVING
The greatest lost, LOST OF SELF-RESPECT
The most satisfying work, HELPING OTHERS
The ugliest personality trait, SELFISH
The most endangered species, DEDICATED LEADERS
Our greatest natural resource, OUR YOUTH

The greatest ‘shot in the arm’, ENCOURAGEMENT
The greatest problem to overcome, FEAR
The most effective sleeping pill, PEACE OF MIND
The most crippling failure disease, EXCUSES

The most powerful force in life, LOVE
The most dangerous act, A GOSSIP
The world best incredible computer, THE BRAIN
The worst thing to be without, HOPE
The deadliest weapon, THE TONGUE
The two most power-filled words, I CAN
The greatest asset, FAITH
The most worthless emotion, SELF-PITY

The most beautiful attire, SMILE
The most prized possession, INTEGRITY
The most powerful channel of communication, PRAYERS
The most contagious spirit is, ENTHUSIASMS.

The original writer for this lovely poem wasn’t me. I don’t know who wrote it as I know this from a forwarded email. Guess all I need to be prettier is to smile more instead of keep spending lovely clothes. Lol
Right, let’s see how far I can control myself keep spending my money. But there is nothing wrong buying stuff for myself right? Lol pampered myself since there is no one else pampering me blehh.

September the 12th.

Have you ever feels that you are the lousiest among your friends or among those people that you know?

Have you ever feels that, no matter how hard you struggle, you will never be any better than them as they have the power backing them up from behind?

Seriously, I have this kind of feeling from time to time. Probably is my mindset problem? Or it’s just that I think too much. I’m not sure about this too.

Sigh. Even though I know sighing won’t help but still, I sighed. Wishing that things will change and wishing once again I will meet the miracle I always wanted. I know we shouldn’t compare ourselves with others as God has made each of us in this world with a purpose. None of us are perfect. He or she might be perfect physically, but mentally they are not perfect also.

If we compare ourselves in physical way or any other way which are not necessary or not doing any help to any improvement, we should stop comparing and be grateful for how God has made you. You are special and there no another duplicate of you in this world.
You were born original, so don’t die a copy.

My View of Secret Recipe, MIRI.

I guess everyone knew that Secret Recipe has finally opened on Monday 8th September 2008. I went there the next day after it opened. Well, to my surprised the interior design is very quite disappointed.

It seems like everything was did in a rush. But room of improvement is always there. The staffs there need a lot more training so that situation won’t be so messy. I, myself would prefer more bright lights in the room, while the air-conditioning shouldn’t be installed on the ceiling but would be better if they install it on the side.

I was sitting at the table number 5, right next to my table, is where the air-conditioning face down, straight down to the table next to mine. I don’t think it’s very hygienic. All the dust might just flew down the food and even the customer’s hair. Well, for now, everything seems new and less dust, but long term effect need to be put in mind.

Those waiters and waitress shouldn’t stuff themselves inside the making drinks corner. What I saw that night, there are 3 persons making drinks, however, those waiters and waitress stands INSIDE the corner after they finished serving food and drinks to the customers. It would cause accidents as the corner is not big. Making yourself like a sardine fish in a can won’t help much. Must bear in mind, safety come first.

The waiting corner is not effective either, well that’s because there isn’t much space in the room to make a proper waiting corner. It would be nice if you have a set of sofa and a coffee table as a waiting corner. I don’t think this idea will work. Well, I will let them figure this out themselves. LOL

The cake corner, hmm, Only 1 comments from me about that. I realized the lady in charge for that corner put all those cakes which left 2 or 3 slices into 1 big plate. Actually, it’s not good to do like that. It’s because, customer need to know which cake is which when they see the cake. My boyfriend and I has been standing there for like 5 minutes trying to figure out which cake is which that night as everyone seems so busy. Well, good business, I can’t blame them after all, the place is still new, staff still not familiar etc. So, in my point of view, even your cake left just 1 slice, do please leave the cake just there at where it was displayed earlier on with the name display on it. So that customer won’t be having trouble knowing what type of cake is that and cashier, waiter or waitress don’t have to bother to entertain the customer’s question on what cake is that? And they can do their task smoothly with no disturbance.

I also realized there are small flies flying around the room. I’m not sure if they did install the bug attracter (I don’t know the exact name for that light bulb). If they don’t have 1, they should get one for the room and another one for their kitchen. It’s not because of the place dirty, but is the drain outside that is super dirty.

The cakes, are they fly-in from KL? LOL I guess so. I saw boxes in their fridge. I ordered hot chocolate that night, well, seems like they don’t use milk but sugar instead. I don’t want to comment of their food as probably that is the way they make their hot chocolate but too bad, that’s not my taste. Lol.
There are quite a lot of bosses in there. I have no idea who is who lol but they sure is friendly xD

Good luck in your business whoever you are. Hope to see more improvement.
3 cheers to the best cake shop in Malaysia.
Good night.

Love is All About Time.

We always hear people said, Life is all about love.. but have you ever wonder what love is all about? Well, Love is all about time. Maybe you have our own definition about Love but here is my definition which I got it from a book named "Purpose Driven Life".

I've been reading this book for a month ++ now, and maybe all of you wonder why would I took so long to read a book? Well, because this book contains 40 chapters and I read 1 chapter per day.

Chapter 16 mention about Love connection with Life and Love is all about Time.
We have always too busy with our own tasks, goals to achieve , earning more cash, daily routines and responsibilities in settling debts and so on and we tend to forgot to spend some time with our loved ones, that is including family members and friends.

Spending time with them is what we SHOULD really be doing. We shouldnt say that we will try our best to spend some time with them, but we must spare some time for them as it is a Must.

Probably most of you wouldnt agree with my kind of view as some would say... " Seriously, I really cant ran off from my work, they are just too much to be finished. " I know one of my best buddy would say this.
She always busy with works 24-7. Hopefully slowly she would have more time with her family, more time for her to think of doing something else for the people around her instead of just focusing her time on her job.

Life has much more stuff being ready for us to do.

Movie Marathon of the Month xD

Right, so I went for a movie marathon last night. I reached home from work around 545pm and I speed up doing my chores including feeding my cat etc. I managed to finish them in just 15 minutes, by 6pm I'm ready for my shower already. xD

Well, actually me and my bf were trying our best to catch Wall-E movie last night as it was the last day and the last showtime is 715pm =.=" yes indeed it was a little rush than usual. However, we still manage to catch our dinner before movie started =P now that's what I called rush hour. lol

Somehow, we are greedy for more movies and decided to watch another movie. New movie to be selected are only 2 and that is Money Not Enough II and Babylon A.D. Well, we decided to go for Money Not Enough II but somehow, the showtime at 9pm full house. So........ no choice we go for Babylon A.D since we have Vin Diesel starring in it. xD

So after all the rush hour short story of this movie marathon I think it's time for me to post out my review on the both movie I watched and how far it goes to my expectation before I watched the movies.

So here goes ,

Wall-E

What I expect was there will be a rusty male robot, falling in love with a modern age female robot. Well, actually that's what the trailer told us about and also their poster. LOL! But...... I expect the animation to be like any other pixel animation, means.. animation which their character TALKS! Wall-E, well......... ;/ they don't talk much... You have to understand the "dialogue" by their body language. Luckily, I'm not too bad with that so I understand what is going on throughout the whole movie. Well, the first sentence I heard in the movie is "who are you?" LOL Well, that female robot asking that rusty robot who is he? as he was stalking on her. lol
From here, more words and sentences can be heard .. LOL at least, they talk. They started to introduce themselves lo.... Eve is the female robot name, the male one name is Wall-E.. xD somehow he cant pronounce it right so he always call her Eva instead of Eve.
I'm not going to talk more about this movie as some of you might haven't watch it yet. =P keep the suspense alive~~~~~~

Babylon A.D

Okay, from the poster at the cinema we all know the main star is Vin Diesel! He is so famous with Fast & Furious Movie, and yes, I put a very high expectation in this movie hoping to see incredible actions inside and stunts.
Well, the turnout kinda bad.. very far from what I expected it to be. Not because of Vin Diesel is getting fat and old and lame ( although he is a little fatter and old ) , but is the story and the movie script problem (psst.... michelle yeoh inside..again..). From the beginning he was talking how cruel the world is and the survival law and it's logical. Then, he accepted an offer sending a girl to America in 6 days to trade his freedom and some cash. LOL
This girl kinda weird .. like a nun or something well that's what I thought at the first place, in the end you realise she is some kind of a clone which talk 19 different languages at the age of 2 being take care by a Chinese lady and that is Michelle Yeoh and has a half robot father which is being killed but not so successful by her own mother which is a priest or a church leader in America.
Both of them are hunting down this girl .. I don't know why her father created her and I don't know why her mother want her so badly. I don't know what is the evil purpose her mother want from her and this girl get pregnant with twins without even have to had sex.
Now how magical is that.. Imagination sexual intercourse? LOL Then in the end , the girl died, Vin Diesel become a father of 2 daughters. =.=" zzzzzzzzzzzz SO LAME LAAAAAAAAA

I haven't gone to do research for this movie yet. Haizzzz bo sim.. thank goodness the ticket is cheap only 5 bux per person while the Wall E cost 6 bux per person.

OK then there goes my review .. it's raining here and I better be off now . =P

YES! I CANT PLEASE EVERYONE. TQ

Yes, from the title , I am a very pissed and disappointed.
I cant be anyone you like, I cant please everyone. Im not a doll, so face the reality la you bunch of monkeys! >.<

I dont like people to control me as I never once had a real life ever since only now that I started to built up the life I wanted. I was looking for just 1% of freedom in my life and I wont let anything come in my way.

I love myself and my mother more than anyone, like it or not , it's just up to you and Im not saying more.
Probably you may think I have mentality problem, well just be it!.. I have enough of these and Im looking forward to pursue the purpose of my life that God has given me.

I have more to do than to be Somebody just to please each different individuals. I am who I was born into, and I am proud of it. Im proud of my mother although she may not be the perfect mother in other people's eyes.
God created us , and we are totally grateful for who we are. You may look at me at one kind but you totally have no idea what I have been going through my whole life , those tough days I have to face.. those teases I have to take, those comments I have to bear.

Even if I told you, probably you may not even understand as all of you just a bunch of money eyes monkeys.

(specially dedicated to those monkeys that hurted my feelings last night like I care if you hate me) BLUEKKK

Me Being Racist?? this is so amusing...

This post is specially dedicated to the person who name himself or herself as "Bacon" who post a message on my chat box saying im racist...

Seriously you should read my post again as I myself cant find any point im being racist inside.
Im a girl grow up in a living area with malays, ibans, kayans and kelabit and they are part of my best friends in schools till Im here all grown up adult and working. I talked their language well, and i respect them and adore them as much as they respect and adore me.

I was talking of how I would judge the food being prepared not just Citrus but other cafe and restaurant as well. As you all know, economy has been very bad and probably now in progress of recovering as I heard petrol price will be going down, and our money for sure must be spend in something which worth value. How to know it's worth value or not? Especially food, different people have different view on it. Even on clothes, a clothes with printed words RM20 compare to a plain V-Neck shirt with no words printed on it cost the same price, which one do u think worth value more? Mostly people would go for the one with printed words on it.

Same goes in food. I got all these ideas when I think on how much my money value now and how do i know i was paying for something that is worth the value instead of some rotten stuff.
In my point of view, people who are doing business in food should be prepare for all possibilities either positive or negative. Spender now not just spend but they analysis on what they spend compare to last time.

I would find a time to go Citrus to try and also the New Seoul Korean Restaurant. Open a restaurant korean selling hot and spicy food in this small town is a daring step. As not all Malaysian love spicy food and definitely their kimchi taste totally different with chinese Sze Chuan vegetable although both are marinated in spicy stuff.

So , Bacon dear... dont cincai accuse people racist before really knowing the person ... very sensitive oo... it kills =P take care and thanks for reading btw.
Pray to Lord, things would be fine, less fortunate people will have better days ahead. God Bless You All.

............ ( not sure what topic to put, if intrested just read )

Okay then................. Lately I've been following up with our country's badminton player or should I said, the world number 2 badminton player news. Well, not too bad for him, he is being welcome warmly by the nation of his arrival by some part of Malaysian, some other part of Malaysian still stick with their professional view of his performance last Sunday and decided to hold back their support so whatever .................... I have no comment of their point of view.

Today, what I read from newspaper is Chong Wei will be rewarded with a "datuk" title.. now that's shocking!! Wow.. I have no comment for this too or should I said, I cant give my comment here as it's very politic sensitive so I will just keep it as my own personal point of view but somehow , just look at the bright side... xD we have another Chinese holding a "datuk" title.. not too bad for the Lee family and others.

Right, enough for Chong Wei news now let's talk about something else.. For mirian, I bet mostly of you know there is a famous Blog call Miri Hunting Food? Yes, it is a blog created by our own Mirian, putting their effort in terms of time and cash , to search food available in Miri for all Mirians and none Mirians. I think that's very sweet of them. Before I read their blog thread title "Citrus", I have already know some of the "story" of this Citrus ..for like .. cooking concept and what I want to know the most.. WHO is the owner?

Yes........ knowing who is the owner of the certain restaurant, cafe or even kopitiam is very important to me.. Dont misunderstand my question.. Knowing WHO is the owner doesnt mean knowing WHAT IS THEIR NAME, WHOSE SON/DAUGHTER ARE THEY? etc.
For me.. I need to know WHAT is the RACE of the owner as you all know, Malaysia has a lot of different races.
Im not being bias here saying Malay race cook super nice rendang and Chinese race is the only race that cook superb mihun goreng.. that's just so wrong... Seriously, all races have their own point of view and taste of their own rendang and mihun goreng. Dont believe it? Go ahead and try the rendang cook by Malay and Chinese.. You can feel the difference and it's very obvious.

So, I found out the owner is a bumiputra guy, I forgot his name.. XXX Gum. LOL no offence ya.. i really forgot his fullname. I can see from Miri Hunting Food blog that Citrus is giving out their best effort to cook the best western meal they can cook for Mirians. I havent got the chance to try their food yet... for sure I would love to try their Chocolate Fundue as it's the first to be heard here in Miri. =P It's a daring step to perform something new here. xD

Reading all these information making me eager to go there as soon as possible.. =P I would really love to talk to the owner himself of his point of view about his dishes in Citrus menu and what makes he thinks those dishes are elligible to be in the menu for his guest to choose and try!
What are the value of each dish? You cant simply create something and put in the menu just because you dont want your menu to look empty =_=" that's wrong! it's suicidal.
What is his comment about his Ice-cream with candle? Is it just to be different as I know it's the first ice-cream with candle lighten on it here in Miri.

What is his comment about his price for the ice-cream? Why is it that much? Is it because of the candle or the sense of how they perform the ice-cream out? Or the ice-cream itself is special for like low fat? true fruits?
Goshhhhhhhhh I would love to ask all these question to the owner.. I may be the most annoying customer they will ever had ... seriously... Im helping them to improve and letting them know what are the point of view of the customer and how customer value the food they pay these days? We all know, economic is very bad and his step of open a western restaurant now in Miri is a very daring step. That's why I keep on wondering here.

Beware of my arrival... dont hide from me.. =P LOL joking lahh..wonder the owner will always be there or not ;/

Lee Chong Wei , This is For You! =)

You may be no one to the world,
But you are the world to those who are close to you.

You may be not the first to the world,
But you are always the first to your fans.

You may just got a silver for 2008,
But always remember, there is no doubt that you will get Gold for the next.

Always remember , no matter how many people tease you, laugh at you, complaint you, blaming you NEVER let those words bring you down as you MUST always remember CHANCES are always there.

Chinese once said, " Feng Shui Lun Liu Zhuan "

WHAT OLYMPIC ARE REALLY FOR?!

Does anyone of you thought of this? I have never thought of this question ever in my life either not until tonight after I watch the badminton match between Lin Dan from China Vs Lee Chong Wei from Malaysia.
I have never wanted to think how well he can do for our country and for himself but Im truly glad that he can make it to the final as we all know..it aint easy ok?

Media all over our country has been giving him a lot of pressure by making advertisement saying he will bring our very first gold... What makes you think you have the right to say so? We should say " Do your best to you and your country " Oh well, most probably our media here doesnt even know the important of pyschology support but more to idiotic words which they think will make our country got our first gold by saying those words and pressurize Lee Chong Wei.

All of you may say how suck and how bad Lee Chong Wei tonight during the badminton final, but I dont mind if you're not Malaysian who's saying this, as a Malaysian, they should never say like this to any of our athletes. Aint easy to practice and built the courage and confidence for such game.

What I notice China been playing pyschology by bringing tones of brainless ass which only have loud voice to yell " Lin Dan Jia You " ( annoying ).

Seriously I was so pissed not because of Chong Wei performance but the noise from the audience. >.>"
And from here , I started to think what on earth do we need Olympic or Commonwealth Games?
Why??? Do you know how much money have each country spend on such games everytime when they organize one? It's billions billions of them ..
It's totally wasting money!
Do you see Malaysia getting any better after the commonwealth games last time? I couldnt say NO at all but does the benefit of our country get last long? No.. I dont think so , I cant see it.
Im not sure I will get banned from what I published tonight but these are true words from heart and Im not pointing my fingers to just of our country but to the nation.

Why not using those billions of money to buy food and medicine for those poor africans children? Why not making a better place, clinics and hospitals for those hidden rural areas in their country?
Why not using those moneys to increase the salary of nurses and doctors so that they will stay back and work for the country instead of going other country to work because other country pay are higher..

Why and why and why? It will be on-going till forever...
Anyway.. to Lee Chong Wei, myself personnally feel proud for your courage.. You played well, You did well..

This year might not be your year... I can say the next year wouldnt be Lin Dan year as well.

Adios people.

Creepy Hot Ultimate Boring Weekend.

Seriously, if you dont own a car or any transportation machine, you will be bbq-ing yourself with boredness during weekend.
This weekend was not my weekend, as I dont get to go out at all, and it's pretty boring.
I was still thinking of getting some equipment for my poor eyes, as the mysterious sickness of my poor eyes just too mystery till I have no idea of what to do but to control my diet.

Eat more vegetables, that's what most people told me. Well, yeah yeah yeah I am eating more of those leaves now......... =_="

BUt in the middle of the recovering process, dont you think I need something to assist my eyes as well? But too bad none of the people around me understand what I meant. Which is totally ... speechless..

It's not easy to get people that you really can trust and rely on.. Even if you think you did, I can tell you it wouldnt be 100%..
Im getting tired of relying people probably have to be lone ranger back again lol

Talk with a Barbarian = ??

Have you ever talked with a barbarian? Or.. Have you ever bumped into one?
Unfortunately I have a barbarian living with me.. I think I will have to continue staying with him and talking with this barbarian until I move out from this house.

It's really pissing off when you bought food back and somehow other people finished it for you instead of yourself. When comes to a debat of who making the most contribution..how funny it is that the youngest child seems to contribute more than the eldest one. Very hillarious. =.=

I decided to store all the junks, rubbish whatever I bought inside my room. By hook or by crook I dont give a chance for this parasite to get my food, get my stuff.
Stingy asshole

So pissed and it's raining here and I feel like slapping someone. =.=

You & Me = ?

You & Me is a very nice song from this year olympic. Sang by Sarah Brightman & Mainland China singer Liu Huan. It's a very good combination and they sang the song very well. Credits shouldnt be just given to the singer but also the musicians and everyone who helped to make the theme song a success.
My own view to this song are, the song is mainly about peace in game, peace in world, peace in anything. All different kinda colour of people come together to make this world a better place.

But how many of us here will think like that? They might be just enjoying listening to the song , dancing to it's tune, but after the song finished, everyone seems to forgot what they should be doing and once again the world isnt any peaceful, more like Jurrasic Park times. Lol.

You might be crying now listening to the song, but does your tears really meant for what it's supposed to be meant? When will people actually knock their head off and understands what are the purpose of life God has given them? Yes, we are living in materialistic world, we cant live without money , but we should never forget the main purpose of us living here on this earth. We should never be selfish among each other for own benefits. The benefits that you get in this kinda cruelty selfishness act will only last a while as it's not permanent happiness and satisfactions.

May the peaceful , want to be peaceful, doing their best to achieve peace spirit be going around the world. There are always something much worthful for us to chase upon to other than power and cash.

08.08.2008

How special is today to you? Well, it sure is the most special day for all chinese people as today will be the beginning of the Olympic Games. Not to mention a lot people chose this date to be the most memorable day of their life. =_= Tv broadcast a news saying 488 couples getting married at the same time same place =_= what a big crowd.... =P hold the wrong wife will be hillarious.. muahahahahahahaha

Seriously, anything can happen today as it's a perfect number of date. People can make a misery chaos for all to remember or making something nice to be remember or the other way around..
Hmm for myself.. I... I didnt do anything memorable today =_="

Daytime go to work, after that knock off and back home and now sitting here blogging rubbish >.<" life.. routine... speechless..
I was sitting here chatting with a friend of mine talking about special day to get married.. he planned 1 already and then I said I want to get married on that day too and he complained I steal his idea lol..

Actually we just want to choose the easiest number to be remembered that's all.. what's the point of getting the best date to get married but not being able to maintain it till old and divorce halfway? No point at all..

Beijing Olympic Games Opening has started so Im going off liao c ya guys around and tq for hoping by this page. =P

Showing off My Breakfast today *perasan*

I woke up this morning lazily.. with a hungry tummy and I thought of cooking something. I still remember there are still a packet of french fries left over from last time bbq so there goes I fried all of them xD..

It's raining and cold which makes me wanting to eat something hot and soupy and gives me the idea of cooking Mee Maggie curry flavour ..it's been quite sometime since the last time I had Maggie Mee as usually I dont eat during weekends.

I miss eating fried egg which I fried myself as I know what I want and how I want the egg to be and there goes I fried an egg... xD ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh
It's the best breakfast for this year that I have ever made LOL not to mention having vodka in the morning kinda kills LOL but once a while nevermind I guess.. lol lol

To dasolve the owner of Miri HUnting Food blogspot, If you ever reading my blog..it's me , Im Miao who spam your chat box sometimes and I bet you will never be able to find such breakfast set in town other than in my house.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WAKAKKAKKAKAKKAKAKKAKAKA

What more can I say? Today's breakfast is very filling.......~~~~~~~~~~~~
Have a nice day everyone!

I Have to Get Outta HERE!

I seriously told myself when I woke up this morning.. I told myself.. " I must get outta here! " >.< I didnt sleep well for the past 1 year++.. It's very sad when I think back.. It seems like it is because I just cant get out something in my mind which cause my sleepless night happen again and again..

I have to get out from all the misery and sadness happened to me all this while. Even when I work.. my brain will think back what happened for during Year 2007.. a lot a lot of things happened in that particular year..

Hopeful things had happened..
Beautiful romantic things had happened..
Happiness till you feel like flying had happened to me also..

Shockness..sadness..dissapointments.. are the one that happened the most..

I was very much disappointing of what had happened last year.. I have to let go something that I actually believe in for the sake of a life of another person which close to me.. It was a very hard and tough decision.. But I keep telling myself.. It has happened.. It will never turn back the way you want it to anymore no matter what you do.. This is what I told myself.. Somehow, I still cant get over it..

I miss all the nice memories in year 2007.. I missed it soo soo soo much.. Somehow it turns very sour in the year end.. Sigh

How can I get over it and have a peaceful sleep? Im tired of having medication to get myself to sleep.. It's killing me.. Sigh..

My Prayers to You

I hope that thing would go back like before, but what had happened will never change.
I hope that you would joke and laugh with me like before, but you have already angry at me without even taking a break to understand what had happened.

I hope you will be happy and will never drown in your life which you claim that it's the only happiness you can find in this life.

I hope.. and I truely hope.. you will be happy.

I Cant Be Selfish >.<

I cant sleep well last night as I have something stuck in my mind which I just cant get over it till now. My BB suddenly mentioned to me yesterday saying he wish to work at Brunei. It's a good news and it's a bad news too. Good news is he will have a better career rather than stuck in his dad workshop and get the chance to perform what he has learn all this while and learning even more of what he is intrested in. Bad news is.. I will hardly ever see him .. no pakto watch movie or yamcha.. If I ever had trouble with transportation.. Bus will be my main transportation again LOL LOL LOL

But somehow I told myself that I cant be selfish.. A man need a career.. it's very important..
Argh.......... no idea what will he decide in the end.. May God lead us the right path.

Gunbound time~~~~~

Save Our Pity Earth.

I was reading yesterday newspaper "Borneo Post" just now as a column attracted my attention to grab the paper and read. ( Usually I dont bother to read newspaper especially Borneo Post ).
The small column was about saving the poor earth - Non-essential flights killing the poor, says Tutu.

It was about cutting off the not necessary business flights by those rich businessman just for a day of business meetings. Not unless you have an important document to carry out to the other businessman at the other side of the country or what so ever. lol

Archbishop Emeritus Desmond Tutu said all those flights including cars fuel burning will cause global warming to be worse and worse each day. Temperature will rise from 1.8 to 4.0 degrees celcius this century due to burning fossil fuels for power and transport.

Not to mention estimation of 185 million of Africans will die this century as direct result from climate change.

It's not just the earth will go extremely hot.. it will also cause draughts, floods, crop failures and water shortage. Even the ice at the north and south pole are melting at the wrong time.. So what good things are you expecting from this poor Earth ?

Humans are getting greedy each day causing global economy failure.
Why are they being so greedy? Even if you own the most money or gold stick in this whole wide world, just remember , by the time you are that rich , you dont even have a safe place to live anymore... or maybe they already found another planet to live so they are now making , absorbing more money to pay a rocket to bring them there? lol Im totally no idea about it.

How I wish that they would 1 day open up their eyes before everything is too late. They should realise what they are doing are actually destroying themselves silently not indirectly.

It's the Time When You Start Missing Them Again.

Yesterday, Friday, 18th of June 2008, was my laziest day of the week. I am pretty lazy every friday but sometimes I cant avoid of being lazy because sometimes workload kinda a lot and rush. But yesterday, my workload not so rush and it makes me very lazy and down.

I wanted to play sms with my friends but ... most of them are busy all should I say.. ALL of them are busy with works but still I manage to sms a while with a Bintulu-nian friend so not so bored for a while but then boredom strikes again.

In the noon, I received a sms from my BB.. Well, seems like he wasnt busy with his works at his dad workshop but instead busy accompanying his far away cousin from England in the gym =_=" From that moment I know he would be very busy with his cousin and at night they will all go for dinner and etc etc etc. Wouldnt have time to sms me to ask how am i doin.. LOL
I was waiting for his sms actually... wait...and wait...and wait....and the time pass by already 8.30pm still nothing beep on my phone.... and i have fallen asleep without even noticing it...

BUt around 9pm I kinda heard my hp beeping , and so it was him afterall.... Just a good nite wish from me to him and i went back to sleep again.... xD

Arghhh yesterday talked a lot with mum about my old school days... been talking about 2 classmates of mine... I dont know why I understand them both so much that I dont even want to blame them for hurting me or being selfish.. Most probably because Im just one of them. Both of them are suffering from bad family background...they grown up with no father.. The gal.. her dad died when she was just 7 while the other boy..his dad left his mom when he was 8. While me.. my dad always had arguement with my mum since the day i know how to listen mandarine language lOL..

Im kinda miss my primary school very very much.. totally missed them.. I miss my lower secondary school too ... because it's the school with the most cute guys i have ever been and my upper secondary school is the most sucks of all.... not to mention no cuties but a lot of dumb asshole who thought they are clever because they are rich. LOL money rules huh? dont think so ...

I just cant wait to leave the damn school i cursed it everyday and I totally hate the teachers there as they are sweet words eater.. >.>" Anyway I am so glad Im off my school days now .. Even though what I earned now is not a lot but it's enough for me to survive through the days.. You maybe say that I doesnt give myself any room of improvement.. dont worry I wont blame you as you are not me and you will never understand what problem im standing in between now that has blocked me from a lot of things that I wanted to do.

Will I ever had a happy ending?

I woke up this morning before 8am by my mother. She told me she will be going out to get some groceries and some pork for tonight bbq at cousin's house. Im a bit lazy to follow as I was still sleepy and tired and my back pain due to bad posture when I sleep. My brother will be driving her to Morsjaya somehow plan changed from Morsjaya to old market at town so end up I have to really woke myself up and get ready to accompanied mum.

I saw mum wore the shirt I bought for her during my first time visit to KL which was 2 years ago. The 2nd time i visit KL was last year and this year economy was so bad and I just switch my job so will not be going anywhere. This remind me of the incident happened yesterday when I was going out with my bf =_=" he somehow forgot that his Gf actually did travel outside of Miri and not a kampung girl.. well sometimes the way he see people and judge people seems like an idiot and would pissed you off till you want to hit him hard till he scream OUCH!

It's either he forgot or somehow he just never have the heart to remember things about me. Well I just think that he has other things to bother which he should be awake by now as those things he has in his brain spinning wont be going anywhere as there are no actions taken and somemore it's all about Money. Time is what he need and a proper income which means he need to get a job. Well I dont have to worry him this as he knows what much more important to him to his life to his future. =)

Argh.. I shouldnt whine so much in cyber space about the misery between me and him LOL
Im a bit confuse whether I am walking through a better life now or just getting much more worse than ever..
I feel like i lose something i win something.. somehow what I lose wasnt the things I want to lose at all..
I seldom talk to my best buddy now.. been a month plus I didnt see her.. Most probably she is busy with works but somehow her position wasnt any manageress or something so..well.. fine if she said she has a lot of paperwork to do.. fine then..

But just now, heard from another male friend saying she sms him telling him she is at cameron highland... Well I know she went to KL she said attending course..somehow now I just feel like sometimes I miss out a lot of things about her and she is missing a lot of things about me too.
I know she dont know that Im attached with another boy right now. Seriously I feel like crying now when I type all this and flash back all those sweet memories I have together with her.

I know one day she will be tired listening to all my pathetic stories and always being emotional but somehow I still look good outside from my smile ..so maybe she thought I was just trying to get attention.. So all I can say here is.. NO ONE understands me but God. Or .. Im just making things so complicated that people just getting tired being pull around in a circle and not understanding what I want in life?

I need freedom and supports. That's all. It's not so easy to understand isnt it?
From freedom and supports, I can go further.. dream further and realising the dreams.. at least I get the chance to try rather than sit around and dreams.

Once again Im asking myself.. will I ever had a happy ending?

Lame Saturday >.>" 28.06.2008

The day before Saturday, 27.06.2008 Friday, I slept around 8pm after my dinner all the way till morning. Feels like a drunken woman LOL as I'm not so concious when my phone rang and mum calling me out to grab some fruits to eat. >.>"

On Saturday morning I woke up at 7am which actually wasnt as I plan it to be because I plan to wake up at 9am xD but I really need to wake up because I feel like peeing. LOL

So there I lay around lazy on the bed as I know it's Saturday and Im the one that is not working among all my female friends so dont ever think about of going shopping on Saturday noon. Lazy lazy lazy around I decided to get out from bed and online as I havent been online for quite sometime already. @@" While busy checking the friendster forum to see who say my bad thing in cyberspace. >.>" Indeed there were people talking me from behind of the cyber space LOL..

Same day , but evening, will be the company farewell dinner to an estate manager. Well, I was late for the dinner and my admin manager wasnt so pleased and he punish me to sing karaoke in front of which I rejected it. xD and he intimidate me by saying he will deduct off my salary next month =_=" i told him there is no such labour law =P he seems kinda pissed. LOLLLL

He was all-out last night as he wasnt the old grumpy man which I have seen for 6 months at my current company which Im working right now. LOLLL amazingly I manage to snap a photo which will be the sweetest memory ever between me and him .. Well will post the pic out when I load it out from the digital camera (dig came was not belong to me =P)

My make up was not as I expected as the one who make it up wasnt me but my bf and his younger sister which is 16 years old =_=" i look seriously ugly but somehow still got people say i look great and etc other positive compliments.. argh >.<>.<

I was sitting with a table of uncles and anty and much more older person than me as Im the youngest in the company xD. Well, I was thinking that I might be needing to fetch food for them , but somehow they fetch food for me .. O.o? wow..touching...
An uncle sitting at my right side was fetching me the fish main bone with still quite some meat attached to it and the uncle sitting left side of me say " wow he feed u like a cat "
=________=" swt....................

Overall the dinner was ok ok lah.... just that the room they use so stuffy.. aircond never cold one... oh I forgot to mention the hotel ..it was Dynasty hotel... the food not so nice probably my manager pick the cheap package lo.... @@ bo bian.. I ate 2nd round at dave's deli.. turkey ham sandwiches, smash potato, youghurt drink and mineral water as the yoghurt drink sucks.. LOL
not to mention all those annoying mosquitoes in Dave's deli >.>"

Well, anyway today is Sunday and it's hot and the internet connection was bad big time so might end up continue arranging my mp3 files in my pc.