Sunday, March 30, 2008

When Sad Meets Happy Chapter 2.2

When Sad start to make no existence of Glad appearance, something that is going to make the school chaos will going to happen.

The once most popular boy in school has started to pay attention to Sad. This has made quite a number of question marks among the students there as I once said, Sad isnt a pretty nor rich students in school just a plain short hair girl with a little talent to help bring up the school name in some happening events around the small town.

The once popular boy which is call Cool, slowly catching up Sad eyes upon him. Sad started to get closer to him. He has some attitude which made Sad feels save when being with him even though just standing beside him and chat. Somehow this has created quite a numbers of jealousy cases in and about the school area. Sigh.

All these somehow also has successfully attract Sad away from her study which made her performance in exams drops terribly. Well of course some people will be very happy as their opponents in exams has drop =_=".

But Sad never feel regret about it at all as she feel happy with her so call monkey - love relationship with Cool. They both caring each other very much as well.

Peaceful mind is just a beginning...

Sunday, March 23, 2008

When Sad Meets Happy 2.1

School challenges in exams and paperwork is very much stressful for Sad. But secondary school will not be so generous to only burden you with homeworks but also some complicated social life issues in and about the school area.
Even making friends, you have to be quick and grab the heart of the chosen one to be your friends which will be sitting together in the laboratory and having lunch together or taking bus together. =_=" how stressful is that. In class, we have different groups of people mixing together more like some tribe like in Africa. LOL

Genious will only mix with genious while the average happy go lucky type will have their own group. Sad mix with people who accept her as she is as she dont really make the 1st move to go and choose somebody to be her friends. She just wait who want to come to her and make friends. In the end, she has been the friend target from the type of students who has been abondoned by some other students due to some unexplainable reasons.

Sad has always wish to be some popular girl in school and yes.. she never fail to do that. Not like she is some sort of pretty girl in school but somehow she just manage to make herself positively popular. xD It's one thing that keep her spirit going to attend class in school and listen to wat the teacher is teaching.

During the 2nd year , there is a huge news that rock the school very terribly. There is a new boy coming to the school and he is totally the most handsome one of all. Well there is 1 that is the most handsome and popular male students but not anymore after this one came in. This guy has been transfered from Kuching to Miri follow his uncle. You should see his brother which is totally 1 handsome good looking dude but he went to different school which is the same school with Sad Brother. LOL

From here, Sad kinda feel "in love" with this new guy and she told herself she want the new guy to pay attention to her and noticed her existence and make friend with her. It's 1 year of struggle which finally she manage to get together with this guy. Sad wasnt the most beautiful girl in school but she has her trademark smile and her talent in some competition which shows out her colour around the school area and gaining her popularity. lol

This guy is call Glad. Glad phone Sad once every day . This is one thing that make Sad happy for some reason lol. The most handsome guy in school called her everyday.. and they just chat and chat almost anything from problems to happy news. BUt things turn sour when comes to the school year end big break holidays. Glad seems busy and called lesser and lesser to Sad. Sad not sure the reason why. Sometimes during Saturday, Sad will go to town where Glad help her uncle out in a candy shop to take a glimpse on him and talk to him for a while. Well, Glad was very happy to see her though. Somehow things do change a lot.

Come to the 3rd year of school, Sad was very disappointed with Glad because he will not automatically find her like previous time and sometimes he was like treating her transparent when she go to the candy shop to find him. =_=" So during the 1st day in school, Sad started not to bother Glad existence anymore. This has made quite a gossip among her classmates and other students from other class too. Everybody wonder what would had happened. From this time on, another tragic history will start to happen again.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

When Sad Meets Happy - chapter 2.0 -

Form 1 was a very challenging year for Sad. Everything change from head to toe.. I mean the uniform of course. haha..~ The school is different and the teachers looks more strict and non-friendly. There are also a lot of chinese students from other primary school. Now this is something I need to explain further more why am I saying this. Sad came from primary school which is 99.99% malays and local natives. In her class, she was the only Chinese students. Her 1st year was very lonely and very alienated from her classmates and she dont understand their language at all. =_="
SOmehow, slowly she manage to catch up... miracle..

She wasnt used to such situation yet with so many chinese students around and easily get to hear mandarine languages almost at each corner of the school and here goes she started to like a chinese guy at the next class. She never thought will be able to make friends with him but it all started when Sad name was being listed as the top students for some exam papers. Somehow this guy is the type with high ambition and he approaches Sad for a friendly challenge in the next exam. This is where both of them started to make friends.

Somehow this has made Sad study in a very stressful way and also facing some inner family problems cause by her Dad. It has never been any better for her. Although Sad is now 13 years old but she still like 9 years old girl ... naive and unable to differenciate between good and bad.

Challenges continues ahead her each day..

Saturday, March 15, 2008

When Sad Meets Happy.

Chapter 1

There is a girl name Sad. She never been any much happier in her whole entire 24 years of life. During her childhood, all she experienced are just gloomy days instead of joy. Her family is not rich, or should I say, her family used to be rich but then end up poor due to her father is a heavy gambler.

Daddy work as a normal plain farmer with mummy help at the empty land of our backyard. Income is not certain every month and daddy temper is always a bad one. Somehow Sad never complaints as she is still young to understand between poor and rich. All she know is if she get to play her favourite cooking game at anytime she want, she will be the most happy little girl on earth.

Somehow situation changed when Daddy found a contractor job at Brunei and there goes things become more smooth than ever. Daddy left Sad and her Mummy here and will only return home during any special occasions through out the year.

Mummy having a big responsibility taking care of Sad because Sad was born in a weak body and easily get sick. Mummy now is also a Daddy at the same time. Sad has been restricted from a lot of school activities and this make Sad not happy about it as Sad get to laugh by other classmates saying she is a coward trying to escape school activities.

Somehow Sad manage to overcome the situation and study as hard as she could to get good result. Sad depends all on school teachers and some help from her aunt who is doing tuition centre business. Mummy is very strict to Sad exam result , even she got B for her exam, she will get scold by Mummy very hard. =_=" This has made Sad think that B is a very very bad result and the one and only good result is getting an A.

During her UPSR, she manage to get 3As and 1B. She wanted so badly to study in better secondary school somehow no one help her to apply. Therefore she end up in a normal government secondary school with her other classmates. Sad face a lot of hard time during her pre-teens. Family problem has turn her to be some sort of devil in school. For once in her life she made a teacher cry and left out the class and she never say Sorry to her too.

Here is the time when she started to feel the "love".

-end of chapter 1-

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

The Picture of Me

The picture of me represent the true side of me
The picture of me represent the bad side of others
The picture of me is where not much people can see

Have you ever try to think the same question every day, every minute and every second of your life?
I have been trying this yesterday and it’s pretty annoying as my brain was twisting around and around and in the end I get nothing.

I did manage to get a way but somehow even my own self doesn’t agree with it much.
People always said I’m the type who always cracking my head to balance up everything which is totally impossible to happen in this world and you can only see it in tv dramas. =.=”

“You can never make everyone feel pleased” this is the phrase I kept telling myself this whole day. “Sometimes you just have to learn to ignore some certain things and do it your way which you think is right!” I told myself this too..

Somehow I just couldn’t remember it and the moody side of me conquers. =.=”

My friend was right. It’s the life that I should change, not the job. lol

Friday, March 7, 2008

When Will I Have the Freedom that I need?

Sometimes I just dont know what I need in life. I feel like I need money the most. Others I just dont really cares.
I used to say to myself that I need friends , but life getting harder and most of my friends are struggling to stay alive and doesnt bother much of what happenings around me anymore. LOL

I just feel like more comfortable staying alone sometimes.. From there I can feel out the taste of freedom. I wanna do things my own way, and even if I know I will regret, it just doesnt matter to me... Cuz I have tasted it before.

Sigh.... tomorrow should be a happy day for me. Should be happy. How I wish I can step my feet outside of this boring torturing corner.. When will it be? when?

and the wonder goes on and on