At the Edge of My Life Last Nite.

I was so happy playing my online game last night as they already change the "lobby" look and the chat room. It becomes like very happening and the background was dark. I love dark colour. BUt then , i heard my irritating brother shouting from his room saying got red ants attacking his room from outside (well, it's and old house so there is a lot of hidden holes for small bugs like ants to tresspassing). He keep shouting asking mum to spray them dead.(as if he himself dont have hands to do it). I ignore him as usual. Let him do it his own, it's his own room anyway.

After he has finish all, he shout at me and ask me go to my room to see got ants or not why still sitting there play game? This is totally speechless, i ignore him afterall that is my room and i wanna see or not , it's all up to me. Why on earth should he bother anyway. =_=" besides Im the one doing chores around the house, I know where got ants and where is not. Ever since the durian tree died at the back of my room, there are no more ants attacking my room anymore. Zzzzzzz speechless.

He keep on shouting at me and repeating and I cant stand it anymore i Shout back and say " do u really have to shout?"

Fui yoooooo.............. after that he reacts like got zombie walk into his soul and start to mad like crazy people having ecstacy or something and even throw the standing fan at me. Luckily it didnt got me, but then i shout back again he throw the electric plug at me but didnt kena also.
Mum rush in from outside of the house and was in shock and ask me not to fight his words back let him blablabla there like crazy monkey out of banana. I know he was trying to hit me or something but mum was hugging me already that time. I dont mind of myself died or something as Im always living at the edge of my life anyway. Heart problems type is like that I guess. Anytime can get heart attack and died, so im always ready for sure.

What worry me if he ever dare to get his hand on mum, i make sure he get the chance to be enter to psycho hospital. He doesnt feel ashame of himself and I guess he never did. It wasnt the first time already actually. Before, he used to quarel with dad and me and mum. Now dad died, only left me and mum. I am patience enough all this while but like Malay says.. "sabar pun ada batasannya" He is totally out of the border line already. >.>"

At first, I though everything will turn back normal when dad pass away. At least the anger person is not here but like Malay says.."bapak borek, anak rintik" so it's very true. The son is taking over making chaos in the house for apparent no reason at all. From the ant case, he can scold till the guy im hanging out with. WOW.. ada mulut cakap orang, takda mulut cakap sendiri. Shame on him.

And if he thought he own this house, well he better use some hot water pour on his face to wake him up as this house wasnt under his name or dad name as it has always been under my mum name!!!!!!!! blekkkkkkkkkkk stupid kanasai brother.

He dont own my life and he has no right to say who i can coupling with who i cant. I never put my feet in his circle of life and so he shouldnt too. He still have to depend on me for sometimes and he dare to do this to me?? GUess he dunno how to write the word "DEAD" yet. =_="

God knows who is wrong and who is right. I dunno why im saying it all here, not to show off or compare whose life is harder but I just dont want to hide how is my family background is as I just want to make sure those who be-friend with me is able to accept the situation. What's the point u're making friends who they thought ur life was more or less the same with them and when they found out it wasnt at all, freak them out, both will feel uneasy. It's pointless being that way.

BTW why no one use the chat box i put there =_="