I'm back from my jungle work trip. Manage to reach Miri at 1pm on the 24th January 2008 and with a sick body. Luckily i fell sick after I reached Miri instead of falling sick in the jungle.
I did snap some pictures of the places I went. Not too bad for year 2008. I never thought I can come out alive from the jungle. I was expecting to have heart attack strike on me but too bad, nothing happened but only terrible muscle ache from shoulder till the waist.
Today, I feel very emotional. Again, I dont feel like living. Or maybe should I say it this way,
I never thought of wanting to live ever since my plan to KL trip has been cancelled last year.
Things change a lot ever since that black day. I changed a lot from physically and mentally. I'm not sure when my normal side of me will last as I know one day I might end up crazy.
I dont feel like talking when I'm sad now unlike before. That's because the people I thought they know me well turns out the other way around. It's really hurting. I feel much emotional after that incident.
Why God give me all this terrible tests to go through? I have already fail 99.99% of the test. I really really dont feel like experience any of it anymore.
