I Have to Get Outta HERE!

I seriously told myself when I woke up this morning.. I told myself.. " I must get outta here! " >.< I didnt sleep well for the past 1 year++.. It's very sad when I think back.. It seems like it is because I just cant get out something in my mind which cause my sleepless night happen again and again..

I have to get out from all the misery and sadness happened to me all this while. Even when I work.. my brain will think back what happened for during Year 2007.. a lot a lot of things happened in that particular year..

Hopeful things had happened..
Beautiful romantic things had happened..
Happiness till you feel like flying had happened to me also..

Shockness..sadness..dissapointments.. are the one that happened the most..

I was very much disappointing of what had happened last year.. I have to let go something that I actually believe in for the sake of a life of another person which close to me.. It was a very hard and tough decision.. But I keep telling myself.. It has happened.. It will never turn back the way you want it to anymore no matter what you do.. This is what I told myself.. Somehow, I still cant get over it..

I miss all the nice memories in year 2007.. I missed it soo soo soo much.. Somehow it turns very sour in the year end.. Sigh

How can I get over it and have a peaceful sleep? Im tired of having medication to get myself to sleep.. It's killing me.. Sigh..