It's the Past That i'm Not Dare to Face

I believe everyone has their own past story I have my own too. A lot.
I was checking my hotmail today as my brother asked me to help him apply a membership in local Pathlab to get cheap rate for any screening package. I want to login to my account but I forgot the passwords and username. So, I have no choice but to check back all the email notification sent by Pathlab to me in my hotmail.

Too bad, my hotmail too much junk mail and important mail mixed all together thousands of them starting from early year of 2007. I have no choice but to scroll a page by a page to look for the email I want. Through the scrolling.. I saw a lot of email from friends, even boyfriends lol I wanted to click them and read , but.. in the end I changed my mind.

Say Im coward , chicken or lizard or whatever , you just name it.. Im just dont want to read back those emails as it bring back the sweet memories which turn sour in the end. People say, take bad memory as guidance for us to walk right in future.. But, of course, depends on what bad memories or bad experience.

Thank you readers.. whoever you are especially =.= and mojojo.. ahahaha both of you debating of what I need is it? I did have the motivation book actually..but never work on me =P I rather eat pill and sleep probably make me better then reading the book. LOL cuz my mind messy and whatever I read, it just cant get into my brain. When my mind messy, I will find place to pour it out, when I fail to find a place to pour out.. I will end up bla bla whining and grinning in the blog.
I admit that this is a very pathetic blog.. I do hope one day I manage to delete this one and create a happy blog instead.. but now, just not the right time at all. Probably you will say..there is no such thing as right time or not, it's the matter of guts blablabla taking actions blablabla.

Strong character people would go on tell me these which is not going to work any much on me. Day pass by a day after another day.. I know one day I will be happier I need time to find what I need =D