Another Year is Approaching.. Cant quite See What I Have.

Tomorrow will be the last day of the year 2007. It makes me think of what I have achieve this year. From January 2007 till April, it's not a good time for me. My dad gone sick and died without any last words from him.

After he left us April - July 2007, I quit my job which I worked for 2 years ++ as their offer doesnt suit my taste. After that I jump to a company to work in August 2007 and quit after few weeks as the job isnt much benefit to me. August 2007 was also the time I spend 1 week in KL with someone I wanted to see for a long time. I have been waiting for this moment for a year.!!!

Well, at least there is something. After the KL trip I remain jobless from September 2007 till October 2007 and that is 2 months there. I use up my savings to pay up my insurance policy and bills every month lolz. Well, planned very well wanna fly to Kl to work actually end up still stuck here in this crap town till now. Im so mad when think of this matter , but it just doesnt matter anymore. Not like I could turn back time.

And November till December 2007 , I found myself a job and also found myself having sickness which I have never thought I will have it. Well after decide to inform those who are closed to me all I get is cold response? Well, wat more can i expect anyway.

So, what I have achieved in Year 2007? a crap sad life and broke. Wee.... should I look at the bright side of it? OH MY!!!!!! I cant seem to be able to find any bright side of it... owh.... =(

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How scary it is when one day you woke up and found out your boobs is no longer there~

Sometimes, They are not the One.

Who would you think of at the first place, everytime when you are in trouble? or during the times when you feel like you just fell on a pile of shit? Or maybe all in a sudden you stuck on a tangle thread.

If it's for my own case, I would think of the people who closed to me + understand me more than myself. Honestly, even though my mum closed to me, it doesnt mean she understands me. The more I grow, the farer she stand from me.

Why suddenly I would wanna blog such thing here? It's because I started to think a lot after the day I told my God Sis about my health situation. Well, I received a cold response that night. I never even plan to tell her about it although I know 1 day she will know about it anyway but gosh I still let her know about it as she started to asked me of why I changed a lot.

Until today, I didnt get any news from her. Well, maybe she is busy or something or , forgotten about me already? Anything is possible..

Sometimes, that person isnt as of what you think they are. Especially some of them changed when you, yourself has changed either physically or mentally. I know it's kinda sad but I just dont wanna bother much. They are not you.

If they think the news I brought to them is just a crap, not serious and they can take it lightly , well just let it be. I know Im going to leave alone anyway.

I had a serious gastric since last night. It stop in midnight but then rise up again to "kill" me this morning till now. Erghhh not to mention I dont eat much these days as I just dont have the appetite not to mention those food aint any attractive at all. Im not dare to complain as the person who cooked it wasnt me lolz.

Monday is new year eve. Well, it will be another day at home I guess. Im not able to go anywhere neither eat anything. zzzz yeah im a vegetarian crap person now. SIGH!

Do You Eat Like No Tomorrow? Eww

I dont like people who eat like no tomorrow. My appetite will drop seriously when having such person eating like that with me. My brother eat like that and seriously I dont like having my meal same table with him. Not to mention he like to talk during meal time.

Well, my ears usually tutup kedai when I am eating something , so I give no response.
Doesn't matter who, I will give no response.

Well, is it wrong to have a peaceful meal? Not like we are rush hour or something. We have to divide our time fairly for each thing we do.

Doctor says eating and talking , or eating and watching tv, or eating + doing any other extra activity will do no good for body digestion and yet people still doing it. Oh well, we are stubborn anyway. Zzzzz

Mixed Tape.. Are you?

I just finished reading a friend's blog. He wrote about people misunderstanding him that he is mixed blood. HAHAHAHHAHA Well, I have also thought that he is mixed blood with ANG MO the 1st time I saw his photo. [ i know him from internet at the 1st place =p].

He is a good person and a bad person at the same time. Well, no one is perfect. I admit sometimes I am quite annoying but to only to those people I met and to those who know who is ME. Im very angelic when i work =)

Well, Im a banana chinese too. BUt I have the chinese look so not much people will misunderstand me and thought I mix with ang mo or african XD. But when I opened my mouth and speak Malay language.. there you go... all I get is weird stare .. like you are naked or something. XD
People actually thought Im mixed with Malay or local natives and the anty who walk beside me is my adopted mother!!!!!!!!!
WAIHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

So when they are too curious they will ask me " are you mixed?" There I go again... telling them how and why I speak such malay. Same line till I am 23 years old now. LOLZ.. I have memorized those lines to answer the same question. Getting bored. Sometimes I just lazily throw my Malay language.

I dont speak much English ever since I left school as the place I work , they mainly use mandarine and foochow. The previous place where I work before this company use mainly Indonesian language and local malay language =) Im still trying my best to upgrade my mandarine.. Im a hakka people and yet, I have no idea how to say hakka correctly. Thank God I am able to understand hakka even though I cant speak it myself. I usually face the trouble of mixing hakka with cantonese LOLZZZZZZZZZZZZ

I learn cantonese from TVB dramas. =) I watch TVB drama since Im very small already. So more or less.. my cantonese is better than my mandarine. BUt i seldom practicing it as my friends around me speak mandarine and malay more.

I even get "bomb" by my admin manager for crap mandarine. Well, I just smile back at him and talk normal as usual as if nothing happened. There's nothing to be mad about but of course I am a little disappointed by my own weakness and how people look at me.

Hopefully 1 day things will change for the better which I dunno when will that be. Well,

crap chinese girl signing out ^^v

Is This Your Daughter? O.o"

Feel nothing special about my topic? Well click on the video and experience yourself ;D

This girl actually which Im not sure she is imitating like a pro pianist or... she is that pro o.o" Im wondering if one day , well if i ever have such chance, to get married , pregnant and have a baby and yes! is a girl? Well, wonder she will be this pro. XD

She doesnt seems like really touching those keys or how you call those white black stuff which u press and will produce sounds. LOLZ

WEIRDoz

Photos Edited During My Miserable Working Trip.

these are some photos i snap along the way of my miserable trip to my company's estate. Well, i edited it yesterday so that i'ts not too plain =p

Torturing Trip =_=

I'm back from the working trip yesterday. Oh god the trip is terrible. Bump road, speeding driver, overtaking...... =_=". I arrive at office to gather up with other staff at 7.30am. But to my surprise, Im the only one there in office other than the Admin Executive. Sigh.. They never punctual.

We start our journey at 8am after the other staff who involves has finally arrived. There are 6 of us altogether including myself. We use Unser for this trip. Oh, seems like I forgot to mention where am I going. LOLZ

Actually Im heading to oil palm estate for some stock checking at their provision shop. The dude who drives the car speed as much as he can as long as the car run stable. LOLZ
Around like 9am++ or so.., we reach a stop place to eat. I had a fried noodle there which taste non-salty.. how considerate is the chef there about health issue. =_=

After the early meal, we head to our main mission. We reach the main gate to enter the estate around 10am++ pretty fast huh? If I was riding in my aunt car for this trip, I may reach the main gate at noon =_="

Well, the journey is not end yet as there was like an hour of trip of bumpy road to reach the provision shop. Sigh.. The road is extremely bumpy that my back hurt and my leg cramp when i reach the shop.

WOW... the air there was super "fresh" not to mention you get to smell cow poo at the surrounding area. =_=" ewww We manage to check our stock for 1 and half hour before we had our lunch at the estate canteen. The canteen was near the oil palm mill just in front of it. Very heaty place. The canteen looks exactly like a public toilet with the blue painted wall and window that being cover with wire and looks like chicken cage. LOLZ

When I step into the canteen, I feel a sudden cold. o.o" The canteen was actually air-conditioned. LOLZZZZZZZ now this is nice! The chef is cooking our lunch just as being command by our main office. We get to choose any drink we like and it's all free of charge. After the lunch, we get to eat ice cream as much as we like as well. LOLZ ..

Well, our lunch have kangkung + belacan, chicken kicap, and also fried sayur sawi and dont forget, fishball soup cook with big onion. None of these dishes is my favourite actually, but I have no choice. The only dish that taste good is the kangkung + belacan. I ate a lot of that + plain rice. T.T

After our simple lunch, the account head of the estate bring us to an orchard. Well, all I can see are durians trees at the side of muddy road and a naked kid running like chaos when she saw our car LOLZZZZZZZZZZ I was shocked to see the kid and I say " wow cannibal ".
The account dude even asked us whether wanna see any goat ? err.. I dont really bother anyway but others wanted to see well it's fine for me. But somehow I didnt follow them to see those goats but follow the other 2 back to the provision shop to continue our miserable dusty stock counting.

There we count our stock until 4pm and started to head back to Miri. Another bumpy ride to suffer. During the time we knock off from the shop, a lady who follow us to count stock shout out " OMFG my hp have sms!! how come?? got line meh?". At that moment we all started to check our hp and try our best to get the connection. Well, I manage to get the connection after i switch off and on my hp =p. At 5.15pm we reach back again the stop place to have a meal.

I reach my home at 730pm. Pretty early for me as the driver is speeding becuz it's not raining. The road kinda winding and dark ..zzzzzzzzzzz

The bad news I received is, there will be a next time for us to go and count stock. SIGH. Seems like this trip will be part of my job task as well. My back is still pain.. oh god..

Along the journey, I notice something funny.. Some are like

a)A school name Sekolah Kebangsaan Kelapa Sawit. It's located at the road side. Why dont they name it Sekolah Kebangsaan Tepi Jalan. LOLZ

b)Rumah panjang called - Rumah Ulat.

I didnt manage to snap any photo for this funny signboard as the driver is not me and it's kinda impossible to request for a stop just to snap a picture for personal use.
Even during the time I snap the picture of the cannibal girl has been a joke for them. It's not a perfect snap as the cannibal girl keep crying and running like crazy shouting " i want mama" and the surrounding is very smokey as they burn the leaves to shooo away some flies.

I'll post those photos out when I finish editing it. ^^

I was suppose to play my audition sea game by now instead of blogging but the connection is just too bad. I have never thought I will actually using real money, meaning using cash to buy clothes for my audition character.. o.o" Well, I never agree using cash to play for online game but I just cant help myself seeing those cheap clothes which is worth to buy ahahahahahaha. Besides, I play the game frequently too. It's the only thing that can wipe off my sad memory and stress even it's for temporary. I play until I just cant stand it and starting to have a weak pulse by then I will turn it off and went to bed. Well, I manage to sleep till morning without any waking up in the middle of the night by at least.

10.43pm now and my downloading file doesnt seems to work and the ADSL line keep blinking. Maybe I shud go to bed but I just dont feel want to as tomorrow Im not working right until after christmas.

Adios.. I'll think of something to do.

Unexpectable Tuesday

Tomorrow I wont be around my town. I will be going for outstation on work purpose. Today was an unexpected Tuesday as I have received last minute command to go for outstation and today after my crazy work, I online and received messages from a friend's MSN saying he is a brother of my friend and my friend has died for the past 3 days ago.

Well, I cant deny the fact that the person Im chatting with is his brother as he once told me he has brothers before. He started to send me his blog site and there is a blog entry saying how he accident and died. Well, you guys must be wondering how he can still post blogs if he is dead?
This "brother" of his saying my friend is making scripts that will auto post, sort of like pre-saved stuff.

After this blog entry, there is another blog entry about hacking after the msn chatter receive some certain file from the opposite chatter. Somehow I did received a file from this Brother of his and I only realise whether this is a hacker or real brother of his AFTER i received the file. Anything might be too late for now.

I even plan to buy points for my audition sea game tonight for my audition character but somehow I just not dare to do it now. My bank account doesnt have much money only berpuluh ringgit but it's my hard work money and I dont want anybody else to take it. LOLZ

When I ask who hold his hp now, he said he hold it. After that he start sms me but with only a word "Hi". =_= oh god Im not sure how long I can take this.

I know he wouldnt take death as a joke. But...

Weird Deco for A Beach , Sabah

It's a photo I edit from my friend's collections. She went to Sabah for a course + travelling at the same time. Among all the photo she upload in her friendster gallery, this is kinda funny.

Weird design and wonder why would people could think of such thing.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I havent see any weird design in my town yet.. and yet still dare to call it a city for tourist.. nothing special here anyway.

Talking Semut..

I am so duper bored last night until I made such thing after I load out some photos from my handphone. LOLZ

I know it's not so funny as I just simply type those sentence..

Best Way to Feel Young AGAIN!

To all the Big boys and Big girls out there, what would you do in order to stay forever young?
Well, for girls, normally they would :-

1) Put make up on their face till their neck =p

2) Dress nicely ..means..dress up with the latest fashion [even it's a 17 years old style=p]

3) Act young

4) Get their hair done

Well for guys, normally they would..:-

1) Get a young girlfriend, if possible, school girls lolz

2) Dress young [wear clothes which is actually teen guy style =p]

Well, that is what I personally observe..Not really a fact actually.
But if you are doing those above in order to stay and feel young, hemm... Honestly I have a brilliant idea to really make you feel young all the time..BIG time.

It's easy..

Mix around with old age people, I can GUARANTEE you that you will feel young for sure. XD

Thank you for reading.

How Important is an Insurance? - sharing my thoughts.

How many of us have buy insurance? Well , Im not selling insurance here so dont worry about it. I just want to share my thought about insurance.

For those young adults which just step their feet into the hectic working world, in my opinion, it's best for them to get themselves Life insurance instead of other insurance. Get yourself a Personal Accident coverage would be better too.

For myself, I have medical and PA under AIA. You dont have to say that you have financial problem which stops you from buying an insurance. Actually, the monthly payment, the premium can be adjust according to your monthly expenditure budget. So no worry about it.

Insurance is actually a fund and the money from this fund is from insurance buyers like you and me. We pay every month to our insurance company and when somebody is hurt or died, money will be paying out to the benificiary or the buyers from this "fund".

Life is so fragile now. Even little kids gets cancer. Imagine how fragile life is. It's really short life for all of us in this hectic world. That's how important insurance is. It covers you and your loved ones. So , you may start to look around for any insurance agency you want to buy from starting this moment before everything is too late. By the time you pay your money to your agent for your insurance, is the time you start to get cover.

Meaning of Christmas for me

Christmas is an annual holiday that celebrates the birth of Jesus. Christmas festivities often combine the commemoration of Jesus' birth with various secular customs, many of which have been influenced by earlier winter festivals. The date of the celebration is traditional but it is not considered to be his actual date of birth.

The word "Christmas" is a contraction of two words "Christ's mass" and is derived from the Middle English Christemasse and Old English Cristes mæsse, a phrase first recorded in 1038. In early Greek versions of the New Testament, the letter Χ (chi), is the first letter of Christ (Χριστός). Since the mid-16th century Χ, or the similar Roman letter X, was used as an abbreviation for Christ. Thus, Xmas is an abbreviation for Christmas.

-courtesy of Wikipedia-

Well, the above is some information i found in wikipedia about meaning of christmas.

Everyone have their own version of christmas meaning so do I.

My christmas is the day where we gather friends we havent seen for ages to come out for a dinner either luxury or average. Last year christmas was okay. I had a dinner with friends in a restaurant. But this year, christmas will be a silent one.

Too much of sad happenings things fall onto me. Feels like kinda hard to get up sometimes. Not to mention, unable to be together with the loved one. How worst could that be? It's a nightmare for me unable to be together with the one I adore, loved so much.

I hate this kinda feeling. Erghh can somebody just hit me at the head or something? LOLz kinda lazy to care of myself anymore..

I know God will be sad to know about this.

Robotic Dress - Is this What we will be buying in future?

This is something i received from a friend's email. I can hardly believe that this sort of dress can actually transform into another style by itself. Somehow i am sure there must be a button to be press and control from somewhere which Im not quite clear either.

Wow you shud see till the end of this video as the model goes naked LOL

What will happened if we happened to buy such dress and wear it in public?

One simple wrong click and the robotic dress go berserk and there u go ..standing naked in the middle of a lot people somewhere in the mall or even on the street ;D

Might have possibility die of electrocution as well XD

Wonder why there is no outfit for men ;/ hemm maybe becuz men wear 2 piece of cloths and that is 1 for the top, another one for the bottom so it's kinda messy a little to make a men robotic outfit XD

O.O" meeting on Sunday?!

Have you ever attend any meeting organize on Sunday? Well I bet a lot of you out there has been thru such experience. For me it's a very 1st time. The meeting will be held at 930am somemore .. =.= such an early morning for a Sunday.

The meeting is basically about the "grand" annual dinner which will be held on Monday 3d december 2007. Sigh..just a dinner..do we have to prepare like going for a battle? I just wish that there will not be any dinner as it's not a relaxing dinner for the staff but a tiring one.

I thought the annual dinner is a dinner being give away by the company once a year to remembered their staff's hardwork through out the year but this annual dinner is just another way around. All staff have things to do and ready just because people from the head office will be attending it. =_=" Well, it's still "orang sendiri" so why all the fuss??!! I just dont get it..

I hate when think of going to the hotel standing at the lobby waiting for their arrival as if im going to see any super stars or datin dato coming. Speechelss. Hotel staff might be thinking that we have nothing better to do. =_="

Tomorrow will be a full time schedule as I have a kenduri to attend in the morning as well. Later on will be a hunt for kenduri gift and my own gown for the annual dinner as the secretary said must wear like super formal. =_="

Sponsor me money i sure go buy one la...aikssssssssss.............. she thought everybody salary is enough to spend on those stuffs i guess..

SIEN SIEN SIENNNNNNNNNNNNNN

Killer Shoe

The picture displayed are called rubber clogs. Our country now is very famous with such clogs and you can see they sell it almost everywhere. It cost around RM150 for a pair of Crocs branded rubber clogs.

This clogs is able to make your children feet to stuck inside the escalator and rip their toes off. XD

So dont ever buy those clogs..not like it's has a cool look anyway..

The Air Car - How potential can it go in future?

Petrol price will increase again next year. Now this has made me think twice before getting myself a car to feed. I am not just have to bother about my budget for my car fuel but also servicing and maintainance fee.

Somehow, inventors from western country such as France has come out with the AIR CAR.
You can sense out what this means. When you heard of Electric car means it uses electricity to run and solar car uses sunlight and of course the air car uses only air.

WOW ..air!! it's free of charge..we have air everywhere!! hahahahahhaha
It's such a brilliant idea. Now you may see the whole introduction brought to you by Beyong Tomorrow at the youtube video link below. Why dont our government spend money for local inventor to invent such thing instead of sending a man to space bringing nasi lemak and ketupat.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QmqpGZv0YT4

Message In A Bottle Video Making - Greenpeace

http://www.greenpeace.org/international/campaigns/climate-change/take_action/bali-video

It's been a while since the last time i log in to greenpeace.com. I have registered as member few months ago because too bored of being jobless and yet wanna do something for a change.. something to contribute a little but not much as in spreading and sending messages about peace of mother nature and so on to friends among my group.

Well here is the latest news I read. There will be a vital UN climate meeting which all country witll send a representative to attend it in Bali, Indonesia. But we dont want words but actions instead.

So here is some little thing you can do to help. Make a video making. Click on the link above and you will be direct to the greenpeace page and a video for you to see and understand how to make it. You can also see other submissions of video from greenpeace members.

Do I Just Experienced The Feeling of HAPPY?

17th November 2007, a Saturday with amazing good weather. I received a sms and to my surprise, it's a birthday invitation from a friend 2 years younger than me which he call me as a sister as well. He's celebrating in advance for his 21st birthday.

The gathering is more like potluck type instead of bbq at the beach.. It's really a God bless that the weather is just so beautiful. I arrived earlier than the birthday boy together with another friend.

Cant blame him because he is arranging from transportation to food. His parents are nice even I just met them on that day and is indeed a young parents there. The whole people being invited are like 10-15 people and i realised there are only 3 female guest including me and his own younger sister as his parents is not joining but only send us the food.

I am the 3rd older people among all the guest though hahaha.. Just that when we sang birthday song for him as cutting the cake was the 1st event on that day, I feel happy seeing his happy face. I still remember that on the year of my 21st birthday, it was a silent birthday with no celebration at all. As our chinese have 1 tradition which the parents will give a key symbol pendant as the meaning you are old enough and you may have your freedom and here is your key.

I dont get the chance to experience those at all. Seeing him having a chance to celebrate his 21st birthday with all of his friends which he would like to have on that special day makes me feel happy too. I dont remember much of my own problem that day at all. Just a sudden delightness feel conquer me.

He is indeed a good young man with bright future. The funny part is, he even asked us to guess what did he just wish for his birthday.hahahahaha. Well i guess it right together with 2 other guest and he owe us a prize for that.

I'll be waiting....

I AM SO MAD HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am mad because I dont like my job!!!!!!!!
I am mad because the internet connection here is just so crap!!!!!!!
I am mad here because friendster's Miri Group forum always HANG!!!!!!!!!! and i cant post any reply!!!!!!!!! >.<

I am mad here because I cant get into my MSN SPACE!!!!!!!!!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i feel like wanna kick someone at the ass and slap someone on the faceeeeeee...................

grrrrrrrrr

Feelings of Being Ignored.

How funny when you realised that you have been ignore by those people who you claim are the most close to you. I'm not sure whether I have been ignore or the problem is just within myself.

Sigh. Sigh is all i can do. I'm not sure when i will get out of this mess and live a happy life. Is it because I set myself too much target?

Total Office Madness.

How do u feel when ur colleagues just too busy buying stuffs which is totally pointless???
Even some packets of peanuts can drive them mad and happy!!!!!!!
LOL , well a peanut is a total world to them if they are peanuts fans =p

I just not getting used to such situation. This new workplace is a total madness and thank god i still have my insanity so far.

My brain is getting messy and messy each day which I trying my best to control. I dont wanna lose my insanity there.

Tomorrow is the last working day for the week, looking forward to Saturday to do some shoppings which I have stopped for quite few months already. =p

Worst Time , Or it might not be the worst Yet

Starting 1st november.. I know, I should be very busy with my work.. my crap work.. and BAMMM!!! BINGO.. I am very busy with my crap work starting that day... Making my whole body feel aching.. *sigh*

Luckily I dont have to work on Saturday..I can have the full day to do my own stuff..
Working in a listed company aint easy, especially if you are new staff.. Imagine that you're new and they let u handle 3 branches' account... This is a total madness.

I also realised my heart beat fast and I have problem breathing which I have to deep breathe in and deep breathe out to feel better.

Not to mention, having headache and even pimples grow lots more too.

=_="

Feels like giving up... gosh..such a pain

Working non stop while other colleague still have time to make themselves a mug of milo or heating up dimsum to eat for teabreak.

Unbelievable...

Its another day to Fight and May God gives me the full strength to Fight it.

Lim Goh Tong - Every Chinese Idol

Lim Goh Tong, who would never know this name? He is the founder of Genting Highland Resort & Theme Park. He died at the age of 90 on the 23rd October at Subang Jaya Hospital. His death is a big loss for our country Malaysia.

All these while, I put Bill Gate as my idol of life, but when the news of Lim Goh Tong death out in the newspaper, I realised that we chinese do have such a great people and worth to be our own idol of life.

His achivement is unbelievable.. Imagine a young man came down to Malaya all the way from China with just a suitcase in hand and some money in the pocket. A man which can only converse in Hokkien and a little mandarine and know NO english, can be so successful and was the 3rd richest man in Malaysia.

His theme park is well known all around people in Malaysia and other countries as far as China itself. His effort wanting to put his life ahead of all people is marvellous.

Let us pray that his soul will rest in peace and may he gives all his blessings to his children, fellow employees and grandchildren a good life ahead.

Having a chance to serve the company own by the 3rd richest man of Malaysia is an honour.

I do hope one day there will be another Lim Goh Tong or maybe an even better or equal.

Backstreet Boys - Unbreakable [New Album] to be released in Oct 30

Backstreet Boys, an old time favourite boy band for all girls all around the world who listens to pop english music.

I love their songs from the 1st album they released until now, their latest album.

This album contains 17 songs.. but what make this album much more different from all of their previous albums are that Kevin, is no more joining them.

He has left the group since last summer to pursue his career in Music & Entertainment industry.

So , listen to their songs by downloading it from this link. No passwords needed to extract the rar file.

Enjoy and have a nice day ahead.~ weee~~~~

http://www.sendspace.com/file/g99ha7

Blackout by Britney Spears.

I bet all of you has already heard the news about what had happened to Britney lately.

First of all, she divorce with her husband Kevin Federline. Then , she lost the custody of her 2 kids. Then, she has been accused of taking drugs and stuffs. Attacked a photographer car with an umbrella.. Cant dance and getting fat etc.

It wasn't a good year for her I guess. But now, she released her new album call "Blackout". Im not sure why she name it this way. Is it she is "blackout" already? LOL .. I totally dont have any idea about it.

And here, I share the album with all you who is viewing my blog right now.

Her songs is very much computerized. I can barely hear "britney" in there. Its like britney-bot singing. In the local newspapers, the news even said Paris Hilton who cant sing actually is having a better album as her songs is unplugged. XD LOL

Well, there is something to be proud about here I guess. hahahahah rofl.
Enjoy the album and download it for free ~ weeeeeeee~~~~~~~~

the passwords to extract this rar file is www.popularasians.com

http://www.sendspace.com/file/2dszjg

New Environment =/

Today is my rest day.. Finally...lol..i have been waiting for this day to come like ages .. which actually its only 5 days away.. 22nd October [ Monday ] was my 1st day of work in a listed company. Well, when i say its listed company, i bet u guys can feel out that is a big company XD ahaks

Hemm, i thought the same too but then i think i better change the way I'm thinking about it already when i found out the company doesn't makes any different with other unlisted companies. =p

Well, on the 1st day, the manager [ which is 68 years old ] brings me around for some short introduction of the company and the people around.. I can quite remember their name that much actually =p. After that, i have been given a desk which is quite dusty and making my nose feel itchy for like 2 hours there.

I can sense out that the desk has been abandoned ages ago. ToT"" sob..
Not to mention its messy, so..is this how a listed company welcome their new staff?? worse than my previous job in a small company. After a short cleanup by myself, i turn around to find someone to give me something to do.

Well, as i expected, 1st day would be a boring day anyway as people around are still busy with their own stuff. They don't really bother me, but the dude which has been assigned to teach me of the company's account whereabouts just simply gave me something to do and few files for me to explore.

The accounting system they use are the system which is written by their own IT team which is totally different from UBS accounting system. Which i don't really like it actually. Even doing a bank reconciliation have to use manually instead of automatic generate by the system.

Well, probably is because UBS cant be link from Miri side to the Kuching side , and therefore they have to use their own system and link it using server.

*sigh* I don't have Internet services to use. Been sitting there listening to their joy of using Internet , chatting and msn-ing. Sad...
Even play sms or replying a sms is weird for them.. Plus..they don't listen to music when they work o.o"

In the end, i listen to my own music . Thank god i have mp4 player to use =p not to bad for the moment.

For the colleagues part, well, in my dept. there are 7 people. 5 females including me and 2 males. 1 male is the one which is im going to take his task from. He is resigning from the job. For the ladies, they are all older than me, while for the men...they seems like the same age as me, =p

The air-conditioner is very cold until i feel itchy as i am not used to coldness.. XD
But i control myself and didn't scratch myself that much... well..just a little bit *rolleyes*

Saturday and Sunday is all i have to do my favourite things. Felt like its not enough to use.. Time is too short and so do our life.

Kokorobox.net / Miserable Day

"kokoro" is a word i learn in a japanese box. Kokorobox.net sounds familliar at first as I have read it somewhere in the internet.

Well, its forum actually. XD lots of great information inside.
I recommend this forum other than lowyat.net

Its a hot sunny Sunday today and it might be the last moment im sitting here enjoying my jobless moment. I will start to torture my poor brain at my new office tomorrow.

Its going to be a long day for me and I just cant help myself thinking where to lunch tomorrow as I might be having lunch alone. I'm not even sure I can swallow any food into my tummy as 1st day of work in new places should be gloomy for me lolz.

I can feel like there are a lot of paperwork waiting for me to clear up.
=_= how considerate of them.

I cant promise anything to the company neither to my brother which is so proud of that particular company as he is one of "them". =_=zzz

My intention to work overboard is still strong.

They should expect the unexpected.

My Freedom, Seems like I lost it.

Have you ever felt like you have lost your freedom? I dont have much freedom since I was a kid. The main reason being used againts me is my health problem. Im not saying I have a serious health matter like heartache or asthma, just that I have a weak immune system in my body. This has cause me to easily fall sick.

I cant do a lot of school activities. Sometimes teachers annoy me for this and I am never the part of their activities. This has lasted until im a teenager.

Even now, im 23 years old, and my freedom still being restricted which makes me very mad sometimes when i think back. =_="

I hate staying at home. I dont like it here. The Adliex here isnt the real Adliex. Its just Adliex who is faking around to make other people less comment about me.

Well, if my family thought they can forever keeping me in their own safety zone, they are dead wrong then.

I have never give up to find a way out from here.