18th January 2011. ETA 7 days.

I waited till my butt flat for my dear's sms, but none was received. Sigh. Then around 630pm today, I received his call, he asked my why I didn't reply his SMS-es?? I was surprised to hear that! I was like , "since when you SMS me?", then I asked the same thing to him , "Why you didn't reply my sms?", and he said , he got every single message I sent to him and he reply all of them. The delivery report said it's delivered to me already, but the truth is, I didn't receive any of them.

But calling from Germany doesn't seems to have a problem. The conversation was quite smooth. There goes his money.. he was so pissed with DIGI and so was I. LoL

He seems like frustrating a little during his second call just now lol dunno why. Probably because everything was so expensive already I think. Haih.. What to do? If it's not expensive, then it's not an European country already. Hahahaha

My back starting to ache. I don't have a proper place to put my boy's laptop to online. -_-" really killing me. Sit on floor salah, sit on chair ,too high, salah, too low salah. No wonder people create computer desk -_-

17th January. ETA 8 days.

The very last message i received from my dear was last night. aih.. i sent many messages for him but not a reply from him today. Just now I only realized my message having problem reaching him as the delivery reports saying PENDING. When I asked DIGI, they said should be reaching normal to the recipient at Germany but also depend on his roaming service at Germany. If it's not stable, then my messages will have problem reaching him. Sigh

I checked my email already as well. I got no email from him. It's afternoon right now at Germany, probably he's having a break from his training. 8 more days to go..just 8 more days.. I'll be seeing him again. Yayyy

Today, I dont feel much happy at office. I hate when people asked me to dig something that is sooooo old already. I hate digging old documents as they are all already being put up at the attic. -_-" fucking idiot old man! I almost saying some bad-to-hear words at him already. My company has no more connection with him and why the hell he keep coming back asking for old things. Fine.. It's almost Chinese New Year right now so I will try not to make myself pissed too much. I'll get him the fucking document and I will make 10 duplicates out from it. He said his business partner lost the previous copy, well right now I have 10 copies for you. You can keep it, it's all yours. Once he lost it again next year, u have another 9 copies to give away. I'll say this to him. Huh! Idiot man! I'll curse you into a ugly toad !!!

To my dear, if you're reading this, do email me if you having troubles sms-ing me. Miss you ahhhhh!!!! You hear me??!! LoL

16th January 2011. 2nd Day.

Last night, I couldn't sleep well. I was busy sms-ing with my dear as his boarding time is at 11.55pm from Kl to Amsterdam. Somehow I fall asleep in between the time. When I woke up, it's nearly 11pm and the last message he sent to me was saying he's going to take a bus to the next terminal. Wow.. taking a bus? KLIA must be HUGE! Haha
I never been to KLIA.. I know it's huge but ..didn't know it's this huge lol

So I quickly reply his sms but somehow I didn't get his reply. I try to call but I couldn't get through. Sigh. How worry I am that I just couldn't sleep well through the night. When I woke up the next morning which is today, I check the royal dutch airline KLM for Amsterdam arrival schedule to see if it will delayed. The schedule said it will arrive on time at 0550 Amsterdam time, that is around 12.45pm here in Malaysia. It was a 13 hours flight!

I pray and pray hard for his safety. He has travelling sickness. I just hope it wont attack him too harsh. I waited patiently for afternoon to arrive and yes!! Finally! I received his SMS around 1pm++. He said he arrived safely at Schipol airport, Amsterdam. Phewzzz I feel so so much relief to hear that! hahaha that I actually smile when I read the SMS. It was his first time to travel that far, fortunately not by himself but accommodate by 7 other people. Hopefully they will take care of each other.

Dear, If you happened to read this at Amsterdam right now, take good care of yourself there okay?? Promise me!

15th January 2011. 1st step ahead.

Today my dear will make his first step to Bielefeld, Germany. I'll be sure missing him for the next 10 days. He'll be having his training there. Feel so proud of his achievement. Just a minute ago, he informed me that another few people from West Malaysia will be joining this trip. This seems like a great news for me! More friends mah... Hope they will all look after one another. My dear is having his first time taking flight from Miri to Kuala Lumpur. I always wanted to be the 1st person to bring him there but never got the chance. Never mind lah.. haha

I'm so worry of him and his preparation for the past 1 month or so that I had sleepless night and feels like going to get berserk already. This morning even had a small arguement with him. When I saw him like he has nothing much to worry, and his preparation mindset doesn't seems to be much, I get mad..very mad. He seems to do preparation to make himself convenient instead of being more safety.
lol.. But I manage to get his luggage arrange a little lah.. I put his passport inside of the bag instead of outside of his bag. I just want him to get home safely.. I couldn't afford to take the risk.

10 days.. 10 days is very fast to get over with. 25th he'll be in Miri already! hip hip hooray! He bought me a birthstone from Diamoney which gave me a surprise early in the morning.. haih.. waste money again I said to him. As usual, he'll be saying, Waste money on you mah.. LoL..menjawab saja pandai. I was expecting some jewellery from him actually but not necklace. But he said he bought it so that I get to have something to look at when he is on training at Germany. LoL yeah I like bling2 stuff.

Hope his flight wont get delay for too long. Have a safe journey dear! I'll be right here waiting for you!

Faizal Tahir - Hanyut - Nice one!

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