Photos from My Trip to Stone Quarry Camp.

Stone quarry view on the trip on 24th January








This is the store that I have almost fainted when I was stock check inside for 2 days. =_="





the 2 pictures above i snapped it when i visit a stone quarry which need to use the "tar road" to Bakun Dam. 2 Hours ride. But the view quite worth it.










I end up fever + cough + kinda lost my voice when I reach miri. =_="
Err..ok lah.... worth the trip LOL

Jungle Girl is Back! wacha!! The emo side of me conquers

I'm back from my jungle work trip. Manage to reach Miri at 1pm on the 24th January 2008 and with a sick body. Luckily i fell sick after I reached Miri instead of falling sick in the jungle.

I did snap some pictures of the places I went. Not too bad for year 2008. I never thought I can come out alive from the jungle. I was expecting to have heart attack strike on me but too bad, nothing happened but only terrible muscle ache from shoulder till the waist.

Today, I feel very emotional. Again, I dont feel like living. Or maybe should I say it this way,
I never thought of wanting to live ever since my plan to KL trip has been cancelled last year.
Things change a lot ever since that black day. I changed a lot from physically and mentally. I'm not sure when my normal side of me will last as I know one day I might end up crazy.

I dont feel like talking when I'm sad now unlike before. That's because the people I thought they know me well turns out the other way around. It's really hurting. I feel much emotional after that incident.

Why God give me all this terrible tests to go through? I have already fail 99.99% of the test. I really really dont feel like experience any of it anymore.

Hard Life Start Tomorrow and will Last til....??

I am officially announce here that tomorrow I will be away from Miri for 4 days. Outstation to some stone quarry camp for some site seeing and stock check.. zzzzz

FYI Im the only girl in the trip together with an "accountant" which talk "gagap" and a driver.
I will be overnite in a no more vacant staff quarters which I can hardly imagine how it will looks like.

Such trip is totally a first time for me. Im not sure I can sleep at night or not cuz it's a totally 100% forest and I have no entertainment but to read some books which I will bring myself. zzzz

I cant imagine what I will be eating as well. sigh

I even have bad dreams all these days which Im not sure if it's a bad omen or something.

Just wanna let u all know if i happened not updating my blog for 1 month, well, no need for me to say more.....

Im not sure my heart will be strong or not when Im in the camp side. I dont have medicine to take anymore neither doctor visitation as I just dont feel wanna walk that long on this crap land.

I started to lose hope when someone u close with started to not to believe in what u said and suspect u tell lies.

Will I Ever Be Any Happier this Year?

Honestly year 2007 was not a happy year for me. I lost too many things ..
I even lost myself.

I am like a dead soul floating around.

I cant see any hope and dreams.

All I can see is bad dreams and hurtful realities.

I am now living with no target ..no aim.. pointless life ahead me.

Will I ever be possible to get myself a hope and a dream to chase?

I am so scare...........

People around me started to vanish from my sight. I dont click with them anymore. Sob.

It's a crazy world to live in

Hear the cat SPEAKS!!!!!!!!!

I really wish I can send this to my boss............................grrrrrrrrrrr