She Never Had it..

She never had a father that loves her
She never had a father that gives her hug when she needs one
She never had a father who kept his promises
She never had father's day celebration
All she need is a father that cares

She never had a brother that cares
She never had a brother that understands
She never had a brother that protects

She never had what people call Life
She never had what people call Freedom
She never had a proper life
She never even got the chance to have them in dreams.

If any of you think that you might have a bad life and it's end of the world, think again. You dont have to compare to any african kids , all you need is to compare it with the person next to you, then you might see , how colorful your life actually is.

She wished that she will one day have a chance for a change, but the possibility seems low, as She has already giving up.

She might smiles,
laughs.. but it was all just a drama that She presents to everybody.
As telling the truth will not change anything in Her life, but only create another sad scene or being left out.

Nostalgica Day For Me

Have anyone of you been thinking to do back some of the things you used to do when you are in teen age or when you are still a naughty kid? Haha.. today, I have did something which I used to do when I was in my teen age or when I was a little girl.

When I was a little girl, there are only me, mom and my brother at home, with some cats and dogs of course as my dad work outside of the town area. He seldom back home unless during some chinese special day.. One of it is during CNY... what else? Im chinese what . Can't run away from that event! LoL

So where ever we go.. we took bus. Bus is our main transport. If we go somewhere near, we use bicycle xD ahaha, yeah, way back to the past, not much cars on the road and everyone drive very carefully compare to drivers now.. =.=" they speed and overtake in small streets.. >.<" totally speechless..

So today,... I took bus to work. Not that I did it on purpose.. It's because I have no choice .. My brother got his chicken pox attack. LoL yeah... chicken pox at adult age isn't easy.. Very very suffering.. the only Good thing that I can think of is You get to have maximum 2 weeks sickleave from Doctors .. LoL

So there , I woke up at 5am, helping mum cooking pooridge, guarding at the fire of the stove.. =.= then bath at 6am, and start walking out from the house at 6.15am.. reach the bus stop at 7am, waited for the bus to reach at 7.15am, reach town at 7.30am, feeling very hungry.. so went to ate some mee kolok.. before start to walk to my office at Waterfront. LoL

So... How do I feel when I reached office?

VERY EXHAUSTINGGGGGGGGGGGGGG IMAGINE YOU HAVE TO WALK WITH EMPTY TUMMY AND THEN HAVE TO FILL IT ALL UP WITH NOODLE BEFORE WALK AGAIN..... DO U FEEL LIKE WANT TO PUKE?????????

THE ANSWER IS YEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
YYYYESSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I feel so dizzy when I reach office, although I dont run, just walk..i hardly catch my breathe =.="
So... should I admit that Im OLD? Or............. lack of exercise? HAHHAHAHHA
Yeah... I am lack of exercise and also vitaminS blablablabla neverending. Haihh..sigh.. I never was like this when I was a teen girl T.T" sob..

The Meaning of a Photo (By me)

Who invented the very first camera on earth? LoL I dont know too. hahaha but I think the person who invented it must be having a huge purpose.

Let's not talk about the history of a Camera.. Let's talk about the person who using this unique machine. I think we call this kind of person as Photographer.. loL ( i realize my grammar is kinda suck tonight.. sucker than before,.. hin ar..dizzy and yet still have a little bit of semangat want to blog some shit in here lol )

I think a photographer shouldn't just choose pretty things to be shoot into, but also find the beauty within ugly things hahahahaha sounds so deep huh?

Not to say edit the photo till it's pretty.. that so not original.. for me la..dunno for certain people..

Photography is such a tricky, magical, adventurous hobby indeed. The skill is neverending..

Stressful Life. Can It be Any simPler?

Why cant we have a simple life ? Why cant the activity of our life be just eat, drink, pee and poo? LoL alright, that may sounds TOO simple. hAHHAHAHA

I want a proper holiday >.<"" ishh..
My mind is just too blank for anything now =.= aihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Time for apple and time for beauty bed =.=

Life of Darkness.

I have been taught my whole life on how to survive in the darkness of life.
I learnt nothing about the sunshine which I heard it is the bright side of life.

No one has to know the reason why,
as revealing it wouldn't make any difference
either now or future.

I'm still wondering will I ever get the chance to actually experience the feeling of living under the sunshine. It will be a question that I will ponder upon for the rest of my life.