20th October , Raining Saturday.

Today is a raining Saturday. It was a cloudy morning at first then it goes sunny in the afternoon until around 2pm , everything started to get darker and there comes the rain..

I was all alone at home. My boy is having his sleep after a late night knock off from his job (as he work night shift at pre-press department). He did SMS to me saying that he only get to sleep at 7am. Probably due to the herbal medicine I got for him. It's to help his blood circulation problem and hopefully will lessen his back pain due to the car accident he had previously.

A lot of things happened in this week. Firstly, my work doesn't run as I plan , or run as I hope. My manager didn't get to sign my documents and everything stuck there. I'm not sure if he will come to sign on Monday.
Other than this, when I reach home, my barbarian brother is bothering me with his personal problem. Hello.. what makes you think Love is all about? For him, love is like a pair of shoes, if it suits you, you just continue to wear it until it worn out, if it's not, you can dump it anytime. Well, for me, the girl he got hooked up is kinda problematic as well. What century is it now? Just met few times and there goes, both announce as "husband & wife" to the public and family members.. I'm totally speechless. Sigh. I had my own problem to bother, and my bf problem to bother and you want me to bother yours as well?!!

My own thought is, a wife or a husband isn't necessary but when you found the right person to walk with you for the rest of your life, NEVER EVER LET IT GO. That's my advice. If you feel why you always failed in the relationship, it's either your home feng shui got problem or yourself got problem or.. you just haven't met the right one yet. God is so funny sometimes, you never expect it when you less expecting.

Alright then, I just heard a gun shot, yes, I have a crazy neighbour living next door, and if there isn't any law in this world, I might already shot him dead myself. Where do I get the gun? Well, since there is no law in this world, guns and grenade might be easily available at grocery stores.

I always asked myself, do I have a good life? How do I rate life in good or bad? I don't have problems having my 3 meals a day, I got work, I get paid every month. I got friends and I had a laptop to use and a smartphone as well. So, is this good? For some certain people, it's just nice, but for some certain people, it's more than enough.

But for me, I still not feeling so happy.. why? Well, first thing first, I'm 28 years old, means I'm getting older. I'm not worry about getting married ( even though people around me are getting married and busy fcking to produce babies ), I'm more worry of my body aging problem. I still have lots to do in my wish list and I know without a healthy body, I wouldn't be able to complete them. I'm worrying of my bf health as well. It's a lie to say I'm not worry at all every time when I hear he said he unwell or back pain or his boss barking at him like he just missed out his sex last night..LOL.

Sigh.. God, if you ever had a laptop up in the sky and reading my blog, please give your blessing and guide to my bf. He deserve something much better. I'm not being greedy, but at least give him some points to follow or strengthen his mind and body. As long as he is doing good, I'm good.

Another week or more is the end of October.. my birth month. Oh well, ding dong ding dong Christmas is here...