Another Year is Approaching.. Cant quite See What I Have.

Tomorrow will be the last day of the year 2007. It makes me think of what I have achieve this year. From January 2007 till April, it's not a good time for me. My dad gone sick and died without any last words from him.

After he left us April - July 2007, I quit my job which I worked for 2 years ++ as their offer doesnt suit my taste. After that I jump to a company to work in August 2007 and quit after few weeks as the job isnt much benefit to me. August 2007 was also the time I spend 1 week in KL with someone I wanted to see for a long time. I have been waiting for this moment for a year.!!!

Well, at least there is something. After the KL trip I remain jobless from September 2007 till October 2007 and that is 2 months there. I use up my savings to pay up my insurance policy and bills every month lolz. Well, planned very well wanna fly to Kl to work actually end up still stuck here in this crap town till now. Im so mad when think of this matter , but it just doesnt matter anymore. Not like I could turn back time.

And November till December 2007 , I found myself a job and also found myself having sickness which I have never thought I will have it. Well after decide to inform those who are closed to me all I get is cold response? Well, wat more can i expect anyway.

So, what I have achieved in Year 2007? a crap sad life and broke. Wee.... should I look at the bright side of it? OH MY!!!!!! I cant seem to be able to find any bright side of it... owh.... =(

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How scary it is when one day you woke up and found out your boobs is no longer there~

Sometimes, They are not the One.

Who would you think of at the first place, everytime when you are in trouble? or during the times when you feel like you just fell on a pile of shit? Or maybe all in a sudden you stuck on a tangle thread.

If it's for my own case, I would think of the people who closed to me + understand me more than myself. Honestly, even though my mum closed to me, it doesnt mean she understands me. The more I grow, the farer she stand from me.

Why suddenly I would wanna blog such thing here? It's because I started to think a lot after the day I told my God Sis about my health situation. Well, I received a cold response that night. I never even plan to tell her about it although I know 1 day she will know about it anyway but gosh I still let her know about it as she started to asked me of why I changed a lot.

Until today, I didnt get any news from her. Well, maybe she is busy or something or , forgotten about me already? Anything is possible..

Sometimes, that person isnt as of what you think they are. Especially some of them changed when you, yourself has changed either physically or mentally. I know it's kinda sad but I just dont wanna bother much. They are not you.

If they think the news I brought to them is just a crap, not serious and they can take it lightly , well just let it be. I know Im going to leave alone anyway.

I had a serious gastric since last night. It stop in midnight but then rise up again to "kill" me this morning till now. Erghhh not to mention I dont eat much these days as I just dont have the appetite not to mention those food aint any attractive at all. Im not dare to complain as the person who cooked it wasnt me lolz.

Monday is new year eve. Well, it will be another day at home I guess. Im not able to go anywhere neither eat anything. zzzz yeah im a vegetarian crap person now. SIGH!

Do You Eat Like No Tomorrow? Eww

I dont like people who eat like no tomorrow. My appetite will drop seriously when having such person eating like that with me. My brother eat like that and seriously I dont like having my meal same table with him. Not to mention he like to talk during meal time.

Well, my ears usually tutup kedai when I am eating something , so I give no response.
Doesn't matter who, I will give no response.

Well, is it wrong to have a peaceful meal? Not like we are rush hour or something. We have to divide our time fairly for each thing we do.

Doctor says eating and talking , or eating and watching tv, or eating + doing any other extra activity will do no good for body digestion and yet people still doing it. Oh well, we are stubborn anyway. Zzzzz

Mixed Tape.. Are you?

I just finished reading a friend's blog. He wrote about people misunderstanding him that he is mixed blood. HAHAHAHHAHA Well, I have also thought that he is mixed blood with ANG MO the 1st time I saw his photo. [ i know him from internet at the 1st place =p].

He is a good person and a bad person at the same time. Well, no one is perfect. I admit sometimes I am quite annoying but to only to those people I met and to those who know who is ME. Im very angelic when i work =)

Well, Im a banana chinese too. BUt I have the chinese look so not much people will misunderstand me and thought I mix with ang mo or african XD. But when I opened my mouth and speak Malay language.. there you go... all I get is weird stare .. like you are naked or something. XD
People actually thought Im mixed with Malay or local natives and the anty who walk beside me is my adopted mother!!!!!!!!!
WAIHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

So when they are too curious they will ask me " are you mixed?" There I go again... telling them how and why I speak such malay. Same line till I am 23 years old now. LOLZ.. I have memorized those lines to answer the same question. Getting bored. Sometimes I just lazily throw my Malay language.

I dont speak much English ever since I left school as the place I work , they mainly use mandarine and foochow. The previous place where I work before this company use mainly Indonesian language and local malay language =) Im still trying my best to upgrade my mandarine.. Im a hakka people and yet, I have no idea how to say hakka correctly. Thank God I am able to understand hakka even though I cant speak it myself. I usually face the trouble of mixing hakka with cantonese LOLZZZZZZZZZZZZ

I learn cantonese from TVB dramas. =) I watch TVB drama since Im very small already. So more or less.. my cantonese is better than my mandarine. BUt i seldom practicing it as my friends around me speak mandarine and malay more.

I even get "bomb" by my admin manager for crap mandarine. Well, I just smile back at him and talk normal as usual as if nothing happened. There's nothing to be mad about but of course I am a little disappointed by my own weakness and how people look at me.

Hopefully 1 day things will change for the better which I dunno when will that be. Well,

crap chinese girl signing out ^^v

Is This Your Daughter? O.o"

Feel nothing special about my topic? Well click on the video and experience yourself ;D

This girl actually which Im not sure she is imitating like a pro pianist or... she is that pro o.o" Im wondering if one day , well if i ever have such chance, to get married , pregnant and have a baby and yes! is a girl? Well, wonder she will be this pro. XD

She doesnt seems like really touching those keys or how you call those white black stuff which u press and will produce sounds. LOLZ

WEIRDoz

Photos Edited During My Miserable Working Trip.

these are some photos i snap along the way of my miserable trip to my company's estate. Well, i edited it yesterday so that i'ts not too plain =p

Torturing Trip =_=

I'm back from the working trip yesterday. Oh god the trip is terrible. Bump road, speeding driver, overtaking...... =_=". I arrive at office to gather up with other staff at 7.30am. But to my surprise, Im the only one there in office other than the Admin Executive. Sigh.. They never punctual.

We start our journey at 8am after the other staff who involves has finally arrived. There are 6 of us altogether including myself. We use Unser for this trip. Oh, seems like I forgot to mention where am I going. LOLZ

Actually Im heading to oil palm estate for some stock checking at their provision shop. The dude who drives the car speed as much as he can as long as the car run stable. LOLZ
Around like 9am++ or so.., we reach a stop place to eat. I had a fried noodle there which taste non-salty.. how considerate is the chef there about health issue. =_=

After the early meal, we head to our main mission. We reach the main gate to enter the estate around 10am++ pretty fast huh? If I was riding in my aunt car for this trip, I may reach the main gate at noon =_="

Well, the journey is not end yet as there was like an hour of trip of bumpy road to reach the provision shop. Sigh.. The road is extremely bumpy that my back hurt and my leg cramp when i reach the shop.

WOW... the air there was super "fresh" not to mention you get to smell cow poo at the surrounding area. =_=" ewww We manage to check our stock for 1 and half hour before we had our lunch at the estate canteen. The canteen was near the oil palm mill just in front of it. Very heaty place. The canteen looks exactly like a public toilet with the blue painted wall and window that being cover with wire and looks like chicken cage. LOLZ

When I step into the canteen, I feel a sudden cold. o.o" The canteen was actually air-conditioned. LOLZZZZZZZ now this is nice! The chef is cooking our lunch just as being command by our main office. We get to choose any drink we like and it's all free of charge. After the lunch, we get to eat ice cream as much as we like as well. LOLZ ..

Well, our lunch have kangkung + belacan, chicken kicap, and also fried sayur sawi and dont forget, fishball soup cook with big onion. None of these dishes is my favourite actually, but I have no choice. The only dish that taste good is the kangkung + belacan. I ate a lot of that + plain rice. T.T

After our simple lunch, the account head of the estate bring us to an orchard. Well, all I can see are durians trees at the side of muddy road and a naked kid running like chaos when she saw our car LOLZZZZZZZZZZ I was shocked to see the kid and I say " wow cannibal ".
The account dude even asked us whether wanna see any goat ? err.. I dont really bother anyway but others wanted to see well it's fine for me. But somehow I didnt follow them to see those goats but follow the other 2 back to the provision shop to continue our miserable dusty stock counting.

There we count our stock until 4pm and started to head back to Miri. Another bumpy ride to suffer. During the time we knock off from the shop, a lady who follow us to count stock shout out " OMFG my hp have sms!! how come?? got line meh?". At that moment we all started to check our hp and try our best to get the connection. Well, I manage to get the connection after i switch off and on my hp =p. At 5.15pm we reach back again the stop place to have a meal.

I reach my home at 730pm. Pretty early for me as the driver is speeding becuz it's not raining. The road kinda winding and dark ..zzzzzzzzzzz

The bad news I received is, there will be a next time for us to go and count stock. SIGH. Seems like this trip will be part of my job task as well. My back is still pain.. oh god..

Along the journey, I notice something funny.. Some are like

a)A school name Sekolah Kebangsaan Kelapa Sawit. It's located at the road side. Why dont they name it Sekolah Kebangsaan Tepi Jalan. LOLZ

b)Rumah panjang called - Rumah Ulat.

I didnt manage to snap any photo for this funny signboard as the driver is not me and it's kinda impossible to request for a stop just to snap a picture for personal use.
Even during the time I snap the picture of the cannibal girl has been a joke for them. It's not a perfect snap as the cannibal girl keep crying and running like crazy shouting " i want mama" and the surrounding is very smokey as they burn the leaves to shooo away some flies.

I'll post those photos out when I finish editing it. ^^

I was suppose to play my audition sea game by now instead of blogging but the connection is just too bad. I have never thought I will actually using real money, meaning using cash to buy clothes for my audition character.. o.o" Well, I never agree using cash to play for online game but I just cant help myself seeing those cheap clothes which is worth to buy ahahahahahaha. Besides, I play the game frequently too. It's the only thing that can wipe off my sad memory and stress even it's for temporary. I play until I just cant stand it and starting to have a weak pulse by then I will turn it off and went to bed. Well, I manage to sleep till morning without any waking up in the middle of the night by at least.

10.43pm now and my downloading file doesnt seems to work and the ADSL line keep blinking. Maybe I shud go to bed but I just dont feel want to as tomorrow Im not working right until after christmas.

Adios.. I'll think of something to do.

Unexpectable Tuesday

Tomorrow I wont be around my town. I will be going for outstation on work purpose. Today was an unexpected Tuesday as I have received last minute command to go for outstation and today after my crazy work, I online and received messages from a friend's MSN saying he is a brother of my friend and my friend has died for the past 3 days ago.

Well, I cant deny the fact that the person Im chatting with is his brother as he once told me he has brothers before. He started to send me his blog site and there is a blog entry saying how he accident and died. Well, you guys must be wondering how he can still post blogs if he is dead?
This "brother" of his saying my friend is making scripts that will auto post, sort of like pre-saved stuff.

After this blog entry, there is another blog entry about hacking after the msn chatter receive some certain file from the opposite chatter. Somehow I did received a file from this Brother of his and I only realise whether this is a hacker or real brother of his AFTER i received the file. Anything might be too late for now.

I even plan to buy points for my audition sea game tonight for my audition character but somehow I just not dare to do it now. My bank account doesnt have much money only berpuluh ringgit but it's my hard work money and I dont want anybody else to take it. LOLZ

When I ask who hold his hp now, he said he hold it. After that he start sms me but with only a word "Hi". =_= oh god Im not sure how long I can take this.

I know he wouldnt take death as a joke. But...

Weird Deco for A Beach , Sabah

It's a photo I edit from my friend's collections. She went to Sabah for a course + travelling at the same time. Among all the photo she upload in her friendster gallery, this is kinda funny.

Weird design and wonder why would people could think of such thing.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I havent see any weird design in my town yet.. and yet still dare to call it a city for tourist.. nothing special here anyway.

Talking Semut..

I am so duper bored last night until I made such thing after I load out some photos from my handphone. LOLZ

I know it's not so funny as I just simply type those sentence..

Best Way to Feel Young AGAIN!

To all the Big boys and Big girls out there, what would you do in order to stay forever young?
Well, for girls, normally they would :-

1) Put make up on their face till their neck =p

2) Dress nicely ..means..dress up with the latest fashion [even it's a 17 years old style=p]

3) Act young

4) Get their hair done

Well for guys, normally they would..:-

1) Get a young girlfriend, if possible, school girls lolz

2) Dress young [wear clothes which is actually teen guy style =p]

Well, that is what I personally observe..Not really a fact actually.
But if you are doing those above in order to stay and feel young, hemm... Honestly I have a brilliant idea to really make you feel young all the time..BIG time.

It's easy..

Mix around with old age people, I can GUARANTEE you that you will feel young for sure. XD

Thank you for reading.

How Important is an Insurance? - sharing my thoughts.

How many of us have buy insurance? Well , Im not selling insurance here so dont worry about it. I just want to share my thought about insurance.

For those young adults which just step their feet into the hectic working world, in my opinion, it's best for them to get themselves Life insurance instead of other insurance. Get yourself a Personal Accident coverage would be better too.

For myself, I have medical and PA under AIA. You dont have to say that you have financial problem which stops you from buying an insurance. Actually, the monthly payment, the premium can be adjust according to your monthly expenditure budget. So no worry about it.

Insurance is actually a fund and the money from this fund is from insurance buyers like you and me. We pay every month to our insurance company and when somebody is hurt or died, money will be paying out to the benificiary or the buyers from this "fund".

Life is so fragile now. Even little kids gets cancer. Imagine how fragile life is. It's really short life for all of us in this hectic world. That's how important insurance is. It covers you and your loved ones. So , you may start to look around for any insurance agency you want to buy from starting this moment before everything is too late. By the time you pay your money to your agent for your insurance, is the time you start to get cover.

Meaning of Christmas for me

Christmas is an annual holiday that celebrates the birth of Jesus. Christmas festivities often combine the commemoration of Jesus' birth with various secular customs, many of which have been influenced by earlier winter festivals. The date of the celebration is traditional but it is not considered to be his actual date of birth.

The word "Christmas" is a contraction of two words "Christ's mass" and is derived from the Middle English Christemasse and Old English Cristes mæsse, a phrase first recorded in 1038. In early Greek versions of the New Testament, the letter Χ (chi), is the first letter of Christ (Χριστός). Since the mid-16th century Χ, or the similar Roman letter X, was used as an abbreviation for Christ. Thus, Xmas is an abbreviation for Christmas.

-courtesy of Wikipedia-

Well, the above is some information i found in wikipedia about meaning of christmas.

Everyone have their own version of christmas meaning so do I.

My christmas is the day where we gather friends we havent seen for ages to come out for a dinner either luxury or average. Last year christmas was okay. I had a dinner with friends in a restaurant. But this year, christmas will be a silent one.

Too much of sad happenings things fall onto me. Feels like kinda hard to get up sometimes. Not to mention, unable to be together with the loved one. How worst could that be? It's a nightmare for me unable to be together with the one I adore, loved so much.

I hate this kinda feeling. Erghh can somebody just hit me at the head or something? LOLz kinda lazy to care of myself anymore..

I know God will be sad to know about this.

Robotic Dress - Is this What we will be buying in future?

This is something i received from a friend's email. I can hardly believe that this sort of dress can actually transform into another style by itself. Somehow i am sure there must be a button to be press and control from somewhere which Im not quite clear either.

Wow you shud see till the end of this video as the model goes naked LOL

What will happened if we happened to buy such dress and wear it in public?

One simple wrong click and the robotic dress go berserk and there u go ..standing naked in the middle of a lot people somewhere in the mall or even on the street ;D

Might have possibility die of electrocution as well XD

Wonder why there is no outfit for men ;/ hemm maybe becuz men wear 2 piece of cloths and that is 1 for the top, another one for the bottom so it's kinda messy a little to make a men robotic outfit XD

O.O" meeting on Sunday?!

Have you ever attend any meeting organize on Sunday? Well I bet a lot of you out there has been thru such experience. For me it's a very 1st time. The meeting will be held at 930am somemore .. =.= such an early morning for a Sunday.

The meeting is basically about the "grand" annual dinner which will be held on Monday 3d december 2007. Sigh..just a dinner..do we have to prepare like going for a battle? I just wish that there will not be any dinner as it's not a relaxing dinner for the staff but a tiring one.

I thought the annual dinner is a dinner being give away by the company once a year to remembered their staff's hardwork through out the year but this annual dinner is just another way around. All staff have things to do and ready just because people from the head office will be attending it. =_=" Well, it's still "orang sendiri" so why all the fuss??!! I just dont get it..

I hate when think of going to the hotel standing at the lobby waiting for their arrival as if im going to see any super stars or datin dato coming. Speechelss. Hotel staff might be thinking that we have nothing better to do. =_="

Tomorrow will be a full time schedule as I have a kenduri to attend in the morning as well. Later on will be a hunt for kenduri gift and my own gown for the annual dinner as the secretary said must wear like super formal. =_="

Sponsor me money i sure go buy one la...aikssssssssss.............. she thought everybody salary is enough to spend on those stuffs i guess..

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