Lame Saturday >.>" 28.06.2008

The day before Saturday, 27.06.2008 Friday, I slept around 8pm after my dinner all the way till morning. Feels like a drunken woman LOL as I'm not so concious when my phone rang and mum calling me out to grab some fruits to eat. >.>"

On Saturday morning I woke up at 7am which actually wasnt as I plan it to be because I plan to wake up at 9am xD but I really need to wake up because I feel like peeing. LOL

So there I lay around lazy on the bed as I know it's Saturday and Im the one that is not working among all my female friends so dont ever think about of going shopping on Saturday noon. Lazy lazy lazy around I decided to get out from bed and online as I havent been online for quite sometime already. @@" While busy checking the friendster forum to see who say my bad thing in cyberspace. >.>" Indeed there were people talking me from behind of the cyber space LOL..

Same day , but evening, will be the company farewell dinner to an estate manager. Well, I was late for the dinner and my admin manager wasnt so pleased and he punish me to sing karaoke in front of which I rejected it. xD and he intimidate me by saying he will deduct off my salary next month =_=" i told him there is no such labour law =P he seems kinda pissed. LOLLLL

He was all-out last night as he wasnt the old grumpy man which I have seen for 6 months at my current company which Im working right now. LOLLL amazingly I manage to snap a photo which will be the sweetest memory ever between me and him .. Well will post the pic out when I load it out from the digital camera (dig came was not belong to me =P)

My make up was not as I expected as the one who make it up wasnt me but my bf and his younger sister which is 16 years old =_=" i look seriously ugly but somehow still got people say i look great and etc other positive compliments.. argh >.<>.<

I was sitting with a table of uncles and anty and much more older person than me as Im the youngest in the company xD. Well, I was thinking that I might be needing to fetch food for them , but somehow they fetch food for me .. O.o? wow..touching...
An uncle sitting at my right side was fetching me the fish main bone with still quite some meat attached to it and the uncle sitting left side of me say " wow he feed u like a cat "
=________=" swt....................

Overall the dinner was ok ok lah.... just that the room they use so stuffy.. aircond never cold one... oh I forgot to mention the hotel ..it was Dynasty hotel... the food not so nice probably my manager pick the cheap package lo.... @@ bo bian.. I ate 2nd round at dave's deli.. turkey ham sandwiches, smash potato, youghurt drink and mineral water as the yoghurt drink sucks.. LOL
not to mention all those annoying mosquitoes in Dave's deli >.>"

Well, anyway today is Sunday and it's hot and the internet connection was bad big time so might end up continue arranging my mp3 files in my pc.

Wedding Dinner @ Eastwood.

Last night was my first time attending a wedding dinner at Eastwood. The other time I had my dinner there was on company's year end dinner. 28th June will be another dinner from company at Dynasty Hotel. LOL wow ..so many dinner and it's all FREE OF CHARGE WAHAHAHAHAHAH

The dinner last night was the halal type which I cant see any pork dish LOL overall.. I ate a lot of the vege which is the 2nd last dish before the fruits plate. Well, it's the only dish which no one wants to eat because it's vege =D

The next dinner will also be halal dishes so I dont expect too much too. LOL

Yesterday morning, I made my hair straight again.. no more messy curly hair and the front hair is no more the "Liu Hai" type now which is the SA POH type or the proper name is the WA-WA style... aiya..so called people name it GOTH look la.... my eyes are small and my face kinda slim down so i look like an idiot..

Tomorrow Im going to get laugh by people liao w00t... haiz..have to suffer for another 3 months for the hair to get long and change the hairstyle at the proper saloon liao..wat a terrible nightmare.. a long one... 3 months nightmares... =_="

Recently I found a new blog which is called Miri Food Hunting. It's a blog actually done by a group of mirian guys i guess .. LOL Myself and my BB actually plan to start such blog but we have no time to do it yet somehow already have people starting it which is quite good.
The weblog is in my blog here so you guys can click on it to find it out... nice places of miri to eat... probably it's not your taste but no harm to give it a try..

It's just a fake happiness from the beginning..

I thought I was walking quater of the road to happiness but today at this moment I realize that I am not.. All are just fake act from my family which I thought I am actually has the green light to move on..

Again..I feel like leaving this home .. I know most probably all of you would think Im sort of crazy for having such thought as everyone would wish to stay at own home.. What I mean is parent's house as the economy goes really bad now..

I dont know.. I just want the 1% freedom.. that's all im asking..is it just too much? >.<"
I knew the chances for my heartache problem to heal would be very low indeed as well. It will keep on aching from time to time until reaches the serious level and die in the end without the last words of Goodbye.. or get hit by car when I cross the streets to get my lunch during weekdays as my eyesight has problems and getting a spec is kinda over my monthly budget.. =_="

I may look like OKAY to you all but actually I am facing a tight finance problem which no one would actually know and moreover I dont expect anyone to feel pity for me as my own family members doesnt feel pity for me what more can I expect from outsiders ?

" I pray to God that mother and brother will feel grateful for what I have contribute towards the family and please Let me have the 1% freedom as I wish I could live longer as I have found my soulmate which I still have a lot of things to share with him and I dont want to get heartache because I am stress out from family problems and die without a last word. Amen. "

A peaceful hideaway Breakfast turn into a Glamourous Breakfast =.="

I slept at 12.30am in the morning and woke up at 6.30am this morning because I thought is a working day for me.. I forgot it's saturday which is my day off. I slept back after that until around 10am++..

But then I received a call from the "one".. >.>" he was on the way to fetch me for breakfast. Okay then I just get ready as fast as I could.. xD
We round round around the shophouses near my house area. Well, we decided to eat at the yellow coffeeshop which is always packed with people.

Well, it is indeed packed with people but we have no choice but to share a table with a couple. >.>" luckily they are friendly people and they dont mind we share the table. xD~

I ordered mee kolok. While eating halfway, suddenly a pack of people came and talked very loud. Well it's a bunch of uncles bringing 3 4 young girls. Like sugardaddy xD LOL
Somehow it turns out to be my BB dad's friends and those young girls are actually singers from across the peninsular malaysia who sang at eastwood golf club last night for the RSS event. =_="

Arghhh wait another 10 minutes.. my BB dad appear.. oh-oh, he caught us.. =_=" aiks... then more and more of those singers appear.... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz somemore we have to share our table with them after the other couple left!! ><" i can hardly finished my noodles i feel so tense as i am eating with a bunch of artist.. (even though they are not as famous as Michael Wong, but still appear on tv every year). After finished my noodle, I managed to snap a photo with a male singer who sing a song name "Siapa" ... overall he is ok lah..good looking enough only beh tahan he has such a wide mouth. and the Zhung Sheng Zhung something i guess... so fair.. =.= and his sister Zhung dunno wat Yi dress up like going undercover... ermm =.=" Overall, they are not shy with common people like us..dunno why..probably they are not "expensive" singer so they are just like dont really care .... Some singer like Ling Yu Zhong or Nicholas Tse... u slowly wait lah if u want him to actually follow u to eat at such coffeeshop and simply stand near u and take pic...... zzzzzzzzz Well, u cant expect much when u decided to be an artist... it need a lot of effort and luck to be by ur side.. my BB still want me too snap pic with the M Girls... ermm .. a group of 3 gals... which is tiny size of gals.... tiny means... small and short.. lol yes im proudly to say im taller than them when i was standing side by side with them to make my way to my BB car. LOLLLLLLLLL Well, girls isnt much any friendlier.. lol Arghhh i wear like pyjamas this morning ... dont feel like taking any photos with those so called artist =.=" but .. hmmmm to make myself not so alien among them..i just follow their flow to snap pic... lol but my BB didnt get the chance to snap any... I know he like to snap photo with artist and so called artist.. sorry BB.. >.>" u have a GG which has too high taste in choosing their photo partner =P bluek..

Notes: BB = boyboy GG = galgal

I'm Letting Go of the 5C.

Do you guys still remember the 5Cs?
Cash
Car
Condominium
Credit Card
Career
Altogether.. 5Cs... Not all my friends know that I have actually letting go of this 5Cs.. What I meant is, not all of them know that I had walk away from my 5Cs boyfriend. =.= or should I say not even 1 of them know. I have no idea how to tell them, they would probably mad at me and say I'm stupid. I should be the most happiest woman in the world when I get married with him.
Even he is older than me by 9 years .. he doesnt look old.. He has the brain and has the career..

Just 1 reason why I walked away from him even though he himself doesnt want to let me go but still.. I just walked away from him...
16th of June will be his birthday, I actually want to say it to him after his birthday.. but I just dont want to waste anymore time as there is someone out there close to me which I dont want to disappoint him as he had gave in so much when I needed someone during my hard time.

Somemore in August he will be in a car race which is one thing I fear. It's not the 1st time he broke up with girls actually but I fear this broke up will be the most hurt one as he never expect I would walk away from him as everything was just so fine around him. He fail to sense that we are actually being away and away far far away from each other for quite sometime.

I am now with the one which I think deserve my love and care as he has pour out the same for me. Even though he has no 5Cs yet, but we still are living happily and sharing a lot of things.
When he hugs me , I actually can feel the warm of love for the first time.......... ^^~

The Beginning of a New chapter.

Have you ever experienced anything in your life that feels like you are reading a particular chapter of a novel which is sad and then it's ending and the 2nd chapter of the book starts with a much more happy stories to read ahead?

Well, I think I'm experiencing it right now.. 2 months ago I was a very gloomy girl ..living hopelessly...doesnt know what to do to pass each day but online gaming and spamming forums boxes. But now, today.. well actually is yesterday, I have found the new chapter of the "story".
I end up the relationship between me and my previous Bf which is a very hard decision to make as most of my friends said he was a good man.. marked with all the 5Cs they said.
He has credit card, condominium, car, cash ermm what's the other C? Oh.. career. It wasnt the age that Im minding about although he is 9 years older than me. [dont worry, im not being a mistress, he is officially not yet married] lol.

It's just that we are lack of communication. Somehow he just doesnt realise it or should I say he just cant sense it out. I want people to talk to me.. laugh together..share together.. doing lots of lots of different things.. not necessary have to be shopping or travelling.. Somemore economy is getting so bad nowadays ... [skipping the economy thing becuz i will whine a lot lol].

So therefore in the end I have chose to leave instead of staying beside him and then whining besides my friends and make them worry which Im totally feel guilty about. Everybody has something to bother so it's just not right to bother them with my personal problems anymore.

But then, probably God was pity with my loneliness that he sent down another man to my life. I know him since last year but we just dont talk much because he was in my "Annoying" list. Maybe Im just not used to his way of talking.. O.o"
Who knows slowly we are just like getting closer and closer and yesterday marked the date which we officially become a couple ^^"

Well, this was from a friendship turn into a coupling relationship. xD Even both of us never thought this could happened. Well, he is on the way to have all those C actually and he is just a year older. We talk and share a lot which makes me feel so close to him and he felt the same way too. ^^

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I cant believe my blog actually have some good news to reah which usually my posts are dark gloomy and sad and full of curse >.<"
I just hope this happy chapter will be a long chapter.
Time to change my blog theme... from dark to something bright as a new beginning.