Today I woke up as usual, feeling hot as usual, and I received sms from my "brother" who work in Bintulu saying that he is enjoying the heavy rain =_=" How envy I was that time to know because my town was super super hot these few weeks. Really making me feel dry.........
Well, enough for the "Pendahuluan" of my blogs which I know all of you can hardly see how it connects with the title =P
Fine fine straight to the point. Today, my admin manager brings 2 young man to office. 1 is white skin and the other is dark skin.. because 1 is chinese and the other 1 is and Indian. Both around the age of 24-27 years old. Dress very smart with ties and carrying big black bags like common salesman. Unbelievably they are actually the "Feng Shui Master" xD
He brings around 1 thing like compass but bigger and flat and square in shape. Im not sure what that called but it's an equipment which mostly feng shui master will own 1. Without it, you are not Feng Shui Master at all. It represent them. They both, walk around the management area with that plat and the Indian which is his assistant joting notes like a reporter. I went to have a peek what's going on in the management department when I was photocopying my documents there.
After that, the next department is our Account Department. They step inside and they look for a Madam which sit nears to me. The director believes this Madam would do some harm to him and the company. Lol But he didnt comment much but only say that Madam's desk wasnt that bad. I wasnt around in the account department when the master was commenting of the area because I dont want to hear him pointing at my desk and commenting here and there. I dont want him to spoil my evening. Lol
After that, he went to conference room. =_=" I wonder what feng shui he can say about the conference room anyway... zzzzzzz speechless.. The next department will be in the 2nd floor and Ground floor. Argh... but my feng shui just doesnt turn right after that crap master left. The purchasing manager suddenly intercom me to go downstair to meet him. =_=" He never talk to me since the 1st day I join this company few months ago.
Well, when I walked into his room, he show me a document. Well, Im the one issued the document to another internal company. I will just conclude this, he was blaming me for issueing the document late than usual, and made the other internal company fail to post the document into the accounting system. This is very weird indeed. From my point of view, I shouldnt be blame at all because I issued the document according to the proper date. Problem was at the Purchasing department which they kept the invoice for too long in the file and didnt pass them to the store department. =_="
From there, everything went down super slow. Not to mention, the admin executive madam came to tell me what's wrong with my side of account supervisor.. >.>" ermm She keep complaining that she can hardly hear what he is been talking about. He has short tongue problem =_="
And then she kinda heard he said I was too slow passing the documents for him thats why he delay preparing the payment. OH MY GOD!! This dude, Im just too lazy to comment much as he is the type " i know what Im doing" guy. He has delay work since last year. My colleague been doing the latest account while I was doing a 2 months back account during the current month. Very very backdated...... =________=" and he even dare to blame me? If I am slow in doing my work, I wouldnt be able to shaking my legs and yawning in the office. I should be having a lot of things to rush by then. >.>" Some bunch of craps.
I think it's time to show my horn and tail out to these people and making their life miserable. I was trying hard to not to annoy people or making people hating me, but seems like I have no choice but to fight back in much more horrible way. Time to change from softie to hard-tie. Lol
Labour day is around the corner and I still have no idea what should I do to spend through the day. Hmm
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Monday, April 28, 2008
Solar Storm in year 2011. >.>""
Today is very hot. Even my office building turn from a fridge condition into a microwave condition. What a hot hot super hot day. I even have to fan myself sitting in that air-conditioned room. Sigh..
Probably the solar storm is true. OMG... there will be no internet..no telecommunication service and of course..no electricity supplies...
You can search at wikipedia for solar storm information. I know about solar storm from discovery channel.
=[ I will be 1 bbq hot ass cat soon
Probably the solar storm is true. OMG... there will be no internet..no telecommunication service and of course..no electricity supplies...
You can search at wikipedia for solar storm information. I know about solar storm from discovery channel.
=[ I will be 1 bbq hot ass cat soon
Sunday, April 27, 2008
Fashionable Hair In School.
I went out yesterday evening for a quick shopping with my God Sis and I realise the people around me especially girls are very fashionable. Not to mention they are still school girls around the age of 13-16 years old. In my time, we are not allowed to have fashionable hairs.........
YESSSSSSSSS it's their hair!! they have curl hair!!
How do they go to school with such hair? Even during my time, long straight hair was not allowed in my school. I believe those students are studying in private schools. My private school means school which require you to pay fee every month.
I really cant figure out much more reason for this. Lol dont tell me those students are dropping out from schools already.. hahahahahahaha
Well, I guess that is one of the benefit studying in a private school because those who pays are the boss.
I pay to study here, I pay for your salary here, Soooooooooo I get to do whatever I want!!
xD LOL
YESSSSSSSSS it's their hair!! they have curl hair!!
How do they go to school with such hair? Even during my time, long straight hair was not allowed in my school. I believe those students are studying in private schools. My private school means school which require you to pay fee every month.
I really cant figure out much more reason for this. Lol dont tell me those students are dropping out from schools already.. hahahahahahaha
Well, I guess that is one of the benefit studying in a private school because those who pays are the boss.
I pay to study here, I pay for your salary here, Soooooooooo I get to do whatever I want!!
xD LOL
Saturday, April 26, 2008
Im Suffering from Memory Loss.
Last night before I close my eyes to have a sleepless night, my brain manage to generate 2 poems. I thought I can still remember it like I always do and post it out in my blog today, but somehow I just dont remember any bits of it. =_="
Now I know why poeters, writers, will always bring along a small notebook with them where ever they go so that they can simply have the chance to write down the points and not forgetting it like me. Sigh. Hope it's not too late for me realize about this. LOL
It's been 2 nights that I have weird dreams. Last night I dreamt that I meet up with this friend where I know him from Internet for like 2 to 3 years. His parents were there too. Somemore they are using limousin. o_o"" Gosh how shock am I. LOL
And he look very gorgeous in real person LOLLLLLLLLLL
Im trying me best already to rest my brain before Im going to sleep but somehow it just doesnt work unless, i drain myself with pills and cough syrup. LOL
Of course Im not going to take those as it's just wrong and Im just leading myself to die faster and not in original way. I still remember a quote saying " You were born original, Dont die a copy"
Kinda scary when think of seeing doctor for a body checkup next month. Just me alone in the silent dettol smell lobby of the clinic waiting for my turn.... eeewwwww.... Hate this. Hate going through this alone. >.>""
Today is Saturday and Im sitting here with my head look like a lioness. Which is totally terrible. But normal at the same time .. LOL what do u expect from a curly hair girl anyway? (p/s man made curl)
Now I know why poeters, writers, will always bring along a small notebook with them where ever they go so that they can simply have the chance to write down the points and not forgetting it like me. Sigh. Hope it's not too late for me realize about this. LOL
It's been 2 nights that I have weird dreams. Last night I dreamt that I meet up with this friend where I know him from Internet for like 2 to 3 years. His parents were there too. Somemore they are using limousin. o_o"" Gosh how shock am I. LOL
And he look very gorgeous in real person LOLLLLLLLLLL
Im trying me best already to rest my brain before Im going to sleep but somehow it just doesnt work unless, i drain myself with pills and cough syrup. LOL
Of course Im not going to take those as it's just wrong and Im just leading myself to die faster and not in original way. I still remember a quote saying " You were born original, Dont die a copy"
Kinda scary when think of seeing doctor for a body checkup next month. Just me alone in the silent dettol smell lobby of the clinic waiting for my turn.... eeewwwww.... Hate this. Hate going through this alone. >.>""
Today is Saturday and Im sitting here with my head look like a lioness. Which is totally terrible. But normal at the same time .. LOL what do u expect from a curly hair girl anyway? (p/s man made curl)
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
At the Edge of My Life Last Nite.
I was so happy playing my online game last night as they already change the "lobby" look and the chat room. It becomes like very happening and the background was dark. I love dark colour. BUt then , i heard my irritating brother shouting from his room saying got red ants attacking his room from outside (well, it's and old house so there is a lot of hidden holes for small bugs like ants to tresspassing). He keep shouting asking mum to spray them dead.(as if he himself dont have hands to do it). I ignore him as usual. Let him do it his own, it's his own room anyway.
After he has finish all, he shout at me and ask me go to my room to see got ants or not why still sitting there play game? This is totally speechless, i ignore him afterall that is my room and i wanna see or not , it's all up to me. Why on earth should he bother anyway. =_=" besides Im the one doing chores around the house, I know where got ants and where is not. Ever since the durian tree died at the back of my room, there are no more ants attacking my room anymore. Zzzzzzz speechless.
He keep on shouting at me and repeating and I cant stand it anymore i Shout back and say " do u really have to shout?"
Fui yoooooo.............. after that he reacts like got zombie walk into his soul and start to mad like crazy people having ecstacy or something and even throw the standing fan at me. Luckily it didnt got me, but then i shout back again he throw the electric plug at me but didnt kena also.
Mum rush in from outside of the house and was in shock and ask me not to fight his words back let him blablabla there like crazy monkey out of banana. I know he was trying to hit me or something but mum was hugging me already that time. I dont mind of myself died or something as Im always living at the edge of my life anyway. Heart problems type is like that I guess. Anytime can get heart attack and died, so im always ready for sure.
What worry me if he ever dare to get his hand on mum, i make sure he get the chance to be enter to psycho hospital. He doesnt feel ashame of himself and I guess he never did. It wasnt the first time already actually. Before, he used to quarel with dad and me and mum. Now dad died, only left me and mum. I am patience enough all this while but like Malay says.. "sabar pun ada batasannya" He is totally out of the border line already. >.>"
At first, I though everything will turn back normal when dad pass away. At least the anger person is not here but like Malay says.."bapak borek, anak rintik" so it's very true. The son is taking over making chaos in the house for apparent no reason at all. From the ant case, he can scold till the guy im hanging out with. WOW.. ada mulut cakap orang, takda mulut cakap sendiri. Shame on him.
And if he thought he own this house, well he better use some hot water pour on his face to wake him up as this house wasnt under his name or dad name as it has always been under my mum name!!!!!!!! blekkkkkkkkkkk stupid kanasai brother.
He dont own my life and he has no right to say who i can coupling with who i cant. I never put my feet in his circle of life and so he shouldnt too. He still have to depend on me for sometimes and he dare to do this to me?? GUess he dunno how to write the word "DEAD" yet. =_="
God knows who is wrong and who is right. I dunno why im saying it all here, not to show off or compare whose life is harder but I just dont want to hide how is my family background is as I just want to make sure those who be-friend with me is able to accept the situation. What's the point u're making friends who they thought ur life was more or less the same with them and when they found out it wasnt at all, freak them out, both will feel uneasy. It's pointless being that way.
After he has finish all, he shout at me and ask me go to my room to see got ants or not why still sitting there play game? This is totally speechless, i ignore him afterall that is my room and i wanna see or not , it's all up to me. Why on earth should he bother anyway. =_=" besides Im the one doing chores around the house, I know where got ants and where is not. Ever since the durian tree died at the back of my room, there are no more ants attacking my room anymore. Zzzzzzz speechless.
He keep on shouting at me and repeating and I cant stand it anymore i Shout back and say " do u really have to shout?"
Fui yoooooo.............. after that he reacts like got zombie walk into his soul and start to mad like crazy people having ecstacy or something and even throw the standing fan at me. Luckily it didnt got me, but then i shout back again he throw the electric plug at me but didnt kena also.
Mum rush in from outside of the house and was in shock and ask me not to fight his words back let him blablabla there like crazy monkey out of banana. I know he was trying to hit me or something but mum was hugging me already that time. I dont mind of myself died or something as Im always living at the edge of my life anyway. Heart problems type is like that I guess. Anytime can get heart attack and died, so im always ready for sure.
What worry me if he ever dare to get his hand on mum, i make sure he get the chance to be enter to psycho hospital. He doesnt feel ashame of himself and I guess he never did. It wasnt the first time already actually. Before, he used to quarel with dad and me and mum. Now dad died, only left me and mum. I am patience enough all this while but like Malay says.. "sabar pun ada batasannya" He is totally out of the border line already. >.>"
At first, I though everything will turn back normal when dad pass away. At least the anger person is not here but like Malay says.."bapak borek, anak rintik" so it's very true. The son is taking over making chaos in the house for apparent no reason at all. From the ant case, he can scold till the guy im hanging out with. WOW.. ada mulut cakap orang, takda mulut cakap sendiri. Shame on him.
And if he thought he own this house, well he better use some hot water pour on his face to wake him up as this house wasnt under his name or dad name as it has always been under my mum name!!!!!!!! blekkkkkkkkkkk stupid kanasai brother.
He dont own my life and he has no right to say who i can coupling with who i cant. I never put my feet in his circle of life and so he shouldnt too. He still have to depend on me for sometimes and he dare to do this to me?? GUess he dunno how to write the word "DEAD" yet. =_="
God knows who is wrong and who is right. I dunno why im saying it all here, not to show off or compare whose life is harder but I just dont want to hide how is my family background is as I just want to make sure those who be-friend with me is able to accept the situation. What's the point u're making friends who they thought ur life was more or less the same with them and when they found out it wasnt at all, freak them out, both will feel uneasy. It's pointless being that way.
BTW why no one use the chat box i put there =_="
Sunday, April 20, 2008
i'M haVing a Hard Life.
I woke up this morning feeling so tired as I have just carried a 1tonne of stones on my shoulder.
I have hard time breathing properly.
My mind is not peaceful.
I feel like want to end this life once and for all.
I cant find what Im fighting for.
My mother hate my choices of path in life.
My brother not being supporting and yet disturbing more.
My relatives not being able to even bother to care.
My friends walk different paths and Im not being able to catch up.
The one i call "dear" and "love" been making me mad and sad.
What's more to say in this life anymore?
I cant see the bright side.
I will always stuck here in the dark side.
I was never meant to be with you.
I will never meant to be with this world.
I hate my life.
I hate it so much till I just dont feel like even care.
I have hard time breathing properly.
My mind is not peaceful.
I feel like want to end this life once and for all.
I cant find what Im fighting for.
My mother hate my choices of path in life.
My brother not being supporting and yet disturbing more.
My relatives not being able to even bother to care.
My friends walk different paths and Im not being able to catch up.
The one i call "dear" and "love" been making me mad and sad.
What's more to say in this life anymore?
I cant see the bright side.
I will always stuck here in the dark side.
I was never meant to be with you.
I will never meant to be with this world.
I hate my life.
I hate it so much till I just dont feel like even care.
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Why is the EMo still ConqueriNg Me??!! >.<
Oh God i cant believe im sitting here with a blank mind!!! I have tonnes of ideas what to blog when i reach home but now my mind totally empty. All that is filled up in my poor small brain are just pity emotions which i can hardly control. Sigh...
Sometimes it's pretty scary when you suddenly remember how old you are and wow.. you havent even done anything successfully ... Maybe different people see different way on how you actually "success" already in life.
For some, they might found a better pay job in this year therefore they consider themselves already succesful for this particular year. For some, they might be having all the cash they could have but only lack of companion so they are looking for their other half and If they failed means they are not successful in this particular year.
My problem would mostly be the cash problem even though Im a girl why should i even bother about cash problems. As my brother from another parents said to me.. "why work so hard? as the money that all girls will get are from boys in the end" Somehow I just dont so agree with him as I feel freely spending my own money on my own stuff.. It's 100% mine!! hahahahaha.. no one has the right to take it away from me~~~~~~~~~
Im not born with a silver spoon so this is partly one of the reason why I feel better spending my own money. ^^''
Oh well... My face kinda not so good looking these few weeks so i might be changing my mind of going to the Pc fair this weekend too. T.T"
Sometimes it's pretty scary when you suddenly remember how old you are and wow.. you havent even done anything successfully ... Maybe different people see different way on how you actually "success" already in life.
For some, they might found a better pay job in this year therefore they consider themselves already succesful for this particular year. For some, they might be having all the cash they could have but only lack of companion so they are looking for their other half and If they failed means they are not successful in this particular year.
My problem would mostly be the cash problem even though Im a girl why should i even bother about cash problems. As my brother from another parents said to me.. "why work so hard? as the money that all girls will get are from boys in the end" Somehow I just dont so agree with him as I feel freely spending my own money on my own stuff.. It's 100% mine!! hahahahaha.. no one has the right to take it away from me~~~~~~~~~
Im not born with a silver spoon so this is partly one of the reason why I feel better spending my own money. ^^''
Oh well... My face kinda not so good looking these few weeks so i might be changing my mind of going to the Pc fair this weekend too. T.T"
Saturday, April 12, 2008
What Have I Miss?
This is a silly question to ask myself. I have missed a lot of things in life lately. Even my bloggy story has stop at chapter 2.2 as i have lost the senses to write any further as I know , the sad plot just too long. Even myself can barely stand the pain when typing it all out.
Like some people said, why wanna look back at sad moments? Why dont we create new and happy moments? Wouldnt that be fine?
People around me is leaving me 1 by 1... feel so super alone now.. finding new friends are just kinda hard for me lately. It's either my mind has been blocked by something or Just myself blocking it as im not quite sure either.
Gosh how i miss my ex life .... last 2 years was a very good life for me.. compare to me now.. burden getting lots more and loneliness seems to conquer quite well. =_="
HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP zzzzzzzzzz
Like some people said, why wanna look back at sad moments? Why dont we create new and happy moments? Wouldnt that be fine?
People around me is leaving me 1 by 1... feel so super alone now.. finding new friends are just kinda hard for me lately. It's either my mind has been blocked by something or Just myself blocking it as im not quite sure either.
Gosh how i miss my ex life .... last 2 years was a very good life for me.. compare to me now.. burden getting lots more and loneliness seems to conquer quite well. =_="
HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP zzzzzzzzzz
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