Solar Storm in year 2011. >.>""

Today is very hot. Even my office building turn from a fridge condition into a microwave condition. What a hot hot super hot day. I even have to fan myself sitting in that air-conditioned room. Sigh..

Probably the solar storm is true. OMG... there will be no internet..no telecommunication service and of course..no electricity supplies...

You can search at wikipedia for solar storm information. I know about solar storm from discovery channel.

=[ I will be 1 bbq hot ass cat soon

Fashionable Hair In School.

I went out yesterday evening for a quick shopping with my God Sis and I realise the people around me especially girls are very fashionable. Not to mention they are still school girls around the age of 13-16 years old. In my time, we are not allowed to have fashionable hairs.........

YESSSSSSSSS it's their hair!! they have curl hair!!
How do they go to school with such hair? Even during my time, long straight hair was not allowed in my school. I believe those students are studying in private schools. My private school means school which require you to pay fee every month.

I really cant figure out much more reason for this. Lol dont tell me those students are dropping out from schools already.. hahahahahahaha
Well, I guess that is one of the benefit studying in a private school because those who pays are the boss.
I pay to study here, I pay for your salary here, Soooooooooo I get to do whatever I want!!
xD LOL

Im Suffering from Memory Loss.

Last night before I close my eyes to have a sleepless night, my brain manage to generate 2 poems. I thought I can still remember it like I always do and post it out in my blog today, but somehow I just dont remember any bits of it. =_="

Now I know why poeters, writers, will always bring along a small notebook with them where ever they go so that they can simply have the chance to write down the points and not forgetting it like me. Sigh. Hope it's not too late for me realize about this. LOL

It's been 2 nights that I have weird dreams. Last night I dreamt that I meet up with this friend where I know him from Internet for like 2 to 3 years. His parents were there too. Somemore they are using limousin. o_o"" Gosh how shock am I. LOL

And he look very gorgeous in real person LOLLLLLLLLLL

Im trying me best already to rest my brain before Im going to sleep but somehow it just doesnt work unless, i drain myself with pills and cough syrup. LOL
Of course Im not going to take those as it's just wrong and Im just leading myself to die faster and not in original way. I still remember a quote saying " You were born original, Dont die a copy"

Kinda scary when think of seeing doctor for a body checkup next month. Just me alone in the silent dettol smell lobby of the clinic waiting for my turn.... eeewwwww.... Hate this. Hate going through this alone. >.>""

Today is Saturday and Im sitting here with my head look like a lioness. Which is totally terrible. But normal at the same time .. LOL what do u expect from a curly hair girl anyway? (p/s man made curl)

At the Edge of My Life Last Nite.

I was so happy playing my online game last night as they already change the "lobby" look and the chat room. It becomes like very happening and the background was dark. I love dark colour. BUt then , i heard my irritating brother shouting from his room saying got red ants attacking his room from outside (well, it's and old house so there is a lot of hidden holes for small bugs like ants to tresspassing). He keep shouting asking mum to spray them dead.(as if he himself dont have hands to do it). I ignore him as usual. Let him do it his own, it's his own room anyway.

After he has finish all, he shout at me and ask me go to my room to see got ants or not why still sitting there play game? This is totally speechless, i ignore him afterall that is my room and i wanna see or not , it's all up to me. Why on earth should he bother anyway. =_=" besides Im the one doing chores around the house, I know where got ants and where is not. Ever since the durian tree died at the back of my room, there are no more ants attacking my room anymore. Zzzzzzz speechless.

He keep on shouting at me and repeating and I cant stand it anymore i Shout back and say " do u really have to shout?"

Fui yoooooo.............. after that he reacts like got zombie walk into his soul and start to mad like crazy people having ecstacy or something and even throw the standing fan at me. Luckily it didnt got me, but then i shout back again he throw the electric plug at me but didnt kena also.
Mum rush in from outside of the house and was in shock and ask me not to fight his words back let him blablabla there like crazy monkey out of banana. I know he was trying to hit me or something but mum was hugging me already that time. I dont mind of myself died or something as Im always living at the edge of my life anyway. Heart problems type is like that I guess. Anytime can get heart attack and died, so im always ready for sure.

What worry me if he ever dare to get his hand on mum, i make sure he get the chance to be enter to psycho hospital. He doesnt feel ashame of himself and I guess he never did. It wasnt the first time already actually. Before, he used to quarel with dad and me and mum. Now dad died, only left me and mum. I am patience enough all this while but like Malay says.. "sabar pun ada batasannya" He is totally out of the border line already. >.>"

At first, I though everything will turn back normal when dad pass away. At least the anger person is not here but like Malay says.."bapak borek, anak rintik" so it's very true. The son is taking over making chaos in the house for apparent no reason at all. From the ant case, he can scold till the guy im hanging out with. WOW.. ada mulut cakap orang, takda mulut cakap sendiri. Shame on him.

And if he thought he own this house, well he better use some hot water pour on his face to wake him up as this house wasnt under his name or dad name as it has always been under my mum name!!!!!!!! blekkkkkkkkkkk stupid kanasai brother.

He dont own my life and he has no right to say who i can coupling with who i cant. I never put my feet in his circle of life and so he shouldnt too. He still have to depend on me for sometimes and he dare to do this to me?? GUess he dunno how to write the word "DEAD" yet. =_="

God knows who is wrong and who is right. I dunno why im saying it all here, not to show off or compare whose life is harder but I just dont want to hide how is my family background is as I just want to make sure those who be-friend with me is able to accept the situation. What's the point u're making friends who they thought ur life was more or less the same with them and when they found out it wasnt at all, freak them out, both will feel uneasy. It's pointless being that way.

BTW why no one use the chat box i put there =_="

i'M haVing a Hard Life.

I woke up this morning feeling so tired as I have just carried a 1tonne of stones on my shoulder.
I have hard time breathing properly.
My mind is not peaceful.
I feel like want to end this life once and for all.
I cant find what Im fighting for.

My mother hate my choices of path in life.
My brother not being supporting and yet disturbing more.
My relatives not being able to even bother to care.
My friends walk different paths and Im not being able to catch up.
The one i call "dear" and "love" been making me mad and sad.

What's more to say in this life anymore?
I cant see the bright side.
I will always stuck here in the dark side.

I was never meant to be with you.
I will never meant to be with this world.

I hate my life.
I hate it so much till I just dont feel like even care.