Why Are We Not Talking to Each Other Anymore?

What a wonderful morning.. but somehow I feel tired and aching here there due to walking too much... That's the prettiest way to describe. LoL. The ugly way to describe is... "aching here and there due to hardly exercise myself".

It's 6th December 2009, the month of Joy, the Month of Christmas for all Christian.. But somehow it's just a month of broken purse for me, the month of Loneliness..
Mostly people been travelling here and there during year end , as it's month of Holidays.
For me, it's just a month of more works in the office, chasing deadlines.

I online quite early today, looking around in my facebook and checking my facebook flash game "restaurant city".
When I checked my facebook chat box, I saw some of my old classmates online..Haven't seen them for ages.. They have left the town to further their studies after SPM, and after that straight to get a job there and refuse to come back to town. Oh well, not enough of job opportunities for them here too.

But somehow, I just dont feel like wanting to talk to them lol. Well, during schooldays, we get to see each other 5 times a week, excluding the co-curicullum hours, but yet we still wanting to talk to each other.. It's like a neverending stories.
But now, even after few years didn't meet, we dont feel like talking to each others -_-"

Well, you must be wondering how do I add them in my facebook.. Hahaha Well, I use the automatically search machine from all my hotmail addresses and it send friend request and they all just approved it I guess.

I know some of my frens like to add strangers in their facebook, not for the meaning of making more friends, but to have more "flash game friends" so that they can visit each other to get more EXP or trading Ingredient in Restaurant city. LOL.

HUman are just so so weird , aren't they?
They tend to ask for more when they already have more than enough.
They tend to work for more when they not needed to.

They tend to walk away, when others needed them.
but somehow they just like to "ke-poh" when it's not needed.

Why do we always doing the opposite way?
Is it because we are trying to get more attentions...? Or we just too bored till we tend to do things to annoy others. Seeing others feeling irritating making us feel popular?
LoL

I dont know either..

Where I am Standing Actually?

I was onleave on Friday .. I thought Im going to have a nice Friday, But I wasn't.
Then I try very hard to make sure myself will have a Nice Saturday, ..well.. I cant say it goes 100% nice.. but it's acceptable..

It's been more than a Month that I have been rotting at home on weekend.. *sigh*..
Getting shocking news and unpredictable things rolling to me is so stressful.

I Miss Him sOoooooooooooooooo Much!! =( Wonder when is the soonest time I will be able to see him? Aihh .. When will this horrible lifestyle end?
When can it be something like fairytale..happy ever after?
How many % of chances will I Get?
Is it Possible?
Nahhh , thinking all these will only kill my brain cells LoL

Tomolo is Monday, I wont be taking any leave till Next Monday =P
Year end is coming soon... another year to make "new year resolutions"
I think this year I am able to proudly post out my "achievements for year 2009" LOL
Probably other people thinks It's just another shitty blog entries, but those little things meant a lot for me as I never had those things achieved in past years.

What if That Another day Never Come?

We always said we wanted to bring our parents for a family getaway,
but we never did and we push the plan away with various of excuses,
we told ourselves that there will be another suitable day,
But what if That Another day never comes?

We always said to our siblings that we will buy that special thing for them as a gift,
but we always use up our money buying things for ourselves again and again,
or even buying things for other friends instead of them,
But we comfort ourselves by saying that, There will be another day for that,
But what if That Another day never comes?

We always said to our pets that we will replace that their broken food bowl, or other broken accesssories,
but we always use up the money to buy a better lunch set for ourselves,
and we said to ourselves that, There will be another day for it,
But what if, That Another day never comes?

We always said to our Besties that we will accompany them for some girl's stuff that we always do together,
But we end up using the free time we have doing our personal stuff on weekend,
We tend to comfort ourselves saying that there is always Another day to company them,
But what if, That Another day never comes?

We always wanted to sms our friends with greetings in every events happenings,
but we used up the HandPhone credits callings our boyfriends/girlfriends,
and we always said , There will be another day to come for it,
But what if, That Another day never comes?

Cuba kau dengar
cuba kau cuba
diam bila ku cuba
tuk berbicara dengan kamu
Pernahkah kau ada?
bila ku perlu
tuk meluahkan rasa hati

Dan bila kau bersuara
setia ku mendengar
agar tenang kau merasa

Siapasebenarnya aku padamu?
mungkin sama dengan teman lain
yang bisa kau buat begitu...
dan bila,
tiada lagi teman bermain
kau pulang tuk dapatkan aku
itulah aku…padamu

Cuba kau lihat
cuba kau cuba..
renung ke mata aku
bila ku kaku melihatmu

Pernahkah kau ada?
bila ku perlu
tuk menyatakan rasa sakitdalam diri

Dan bila kau perlu
setia ku menunggu
agar senang kau merasa

Siapa
sebenarnya aku padamu?
mungkin sama dengan teman lain
yang bisa kau buat begitu...
dan bila
tiada lagi teman bermain
kau pulang tuk dapatkan aku
itulah aku…padamu

Maafkan kerana aku tak pernah
terlintas tuk menulis pada mu
salahkan ku
tak mungkin lagi aku meminta
untuk kau mendengar..
untuk kau melihat ke mataku

Siapasebenarnya aku padamu
mungkin sama dengan teman lain
yang bisa kau buat begitu

dan bila
tiada lagi teman bermain
kau pulang tuk dapatkan akui
tulah aku…padamu

thanks Faizal Tahir for such a lovely meaningful song

Wondering if That is Who You Really are..

Finally today I made my decision to which to take off my annual leave. I wont be leaving anywhere this year, so the annual leave would mostly being spent at home or at Megamall. LoL
Cuti Cuti own town saja lo~ That's how a broken people "enjoying" their life I guess..well, partly.

Next Monday will be on holiday, although my manager havent approved my leave application form (because I havent received my copy yet), I will just assume he already approved it. Well he need to approved it anyway -_-"

Poker face! Poker face! song from Lady GaGa sure is gaga enough lol
I always have the idea on what to blog when im not any nearer to my pc, but when im here sitting right in front of it.. My idea all gone already -_-"

so.. good night everyone till we meet again next time.