It's just a fake happiness from the beginning..

I thought I was walking quater of the road to happiness but today at this moment I realize that I am not.. All are just fake act from my family which I thought I am actually has the green light to move on..

Again..I feel like leaving this home .. I know most probably all of you would think Im sort of crazy for having such thought as everyone would wish to stay at own home.. What I mean is parent's house as the economy goes really bad now..

I dont know.. I just want the 1% freedom.. that's all im asking..is it just too much? >.<"
I knew the chances for my heartache problem to heal would be very low indeed as well. It will keep on aching from time to time until reaches the serious level and die in the end without the last words of Goodbye.. or get hit by car when I cross the streets to get my lunch during weekdays as my eyesight has problems and getting a spec is kinda over my monthly budget.. =_="

I may look like OKAY to you all but actually I am facing a tight finance problem which no one would actually know and moreover I dont expect anyone to feel pity for me as my own family members doesnt feel pity for me what more can I expect from outsiders ?

" I pray to God that mother and brother will feel grateful for what I have contribute towards the family and please Let me have the 1% freedom as I wish I could live longer as I have found my soulmate which I still have a lot of things to share with him and I dont want to get heartache because I am stress out from family problems and die without a last word. Amen. "