When Will I Have the Freedom that I need?

Sometimes I just dont know what I need in life. I feel like I need money the most. Others I just dont really cares.
I used to say to myself that I need friends , but life getting harder and most of my friends are struggling to stay alive and doesnt bother much of what happenings around me anymore. LOL

I just feel like more comfortable staying alone sometimes.. From there I can feel out the taste of freedom. I wanna do things my own way, and even if I know I will regret, it just doesnt matter to me... Cuz I have tasted it before.

Sigh.... tomorrow should be a happy day for me. Should be happy. How I wish I can step my feet outside of this boring torturing corner.. When will it be? when?

and the wonder goes on and on