EMERGENCY TASK! ERGHH >.<

So dizzy of me yesterday morning when I woke up feel like skipping my work and telling my manager that I couldnt make it for the day, but I still wake up in the end and ready for work.
Doing my daily work slowly suddenly a very fast pace footsteps walk towards my table and say..

"Are You free??!! " Me " err what's wrong?" " The camp payroll system ran off and I want you to go up with the IT dude to see the problem" Me " err but I wearing skirt right now and I dont think it is a proper attire for a jungle trip " "AiYA.......... who cares of that? Just wear your office slippers and bring your stuff will do. You are using Unser to go you know. " Me " =_= fine. wait me a while "

And yes.. For the first time, I have been assigned with an emergency task , I dont even have chances to prepare myself at all and I have to wear my skirt and office attire with office slipper with the other hand holding a plastic bag contained my heels =_=" zzz Because I will be heading home straight from Miri-Bintulu road , I dont want to go back office again. zzzz

When I was sitting in the car, I know camp people will look at me one kind. Who knows when I reach Batu Niah Ngu's food court, the people there already look at me at one kind. HAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAH so hillarious !!!!!!!! Goodness me
Guess they live there at the jungle too long till never see a girl wear office attire go camp LOL

Unfortunately, we couldnt fix the fcking problem.. Thanks to the carelessness of the IT guy from Kuching HQ. >.<>.<"

I dont Believe You

I don’t mind it
I don’t mind at all
It’s like you’re the swing set
And I’m the kid that falls
It’s like the way we fight
The times I’ve cried
We come to blows
And every night
The passion’s there
So it’s got to be right
Right?

No I don’t believe you
When you say don’t come around here no more
I won’t remind you
You said we wouldn’t be apart
No I don’t believe you
When you say you don’t need me anymore
So don’t pretend to
Not love me at all

I don’t mind
I still don’t mind at all
It’s like one of those bad dreams
When you can’t wake up
It looks like you’ve given up
You’ve had enough
But I want more
No I won't stop
Because I just know You’ll come around Right?
No I don’t believe you
When you say don’t come around here no more
I won’t remind you
You said we wouldn’t be apart

No I don’t believe you
When you say you don’t need me anymore
So don’t pretend to Not love me at all
Just don’t stand there and watch me fall
Because I, because I still don’t mind at all
It’s like the way we fight
The times I’ve cried
We come to blows
And every night
The passion's there
So it’s got to be right,
Right?

No I don’t believe you
When you say don’t come around here no more
I won’t remind you
You said we wouldn’t be apart
No I don’t believe you
When you say you don’t need me anymore
So don’t pretend to
Not love me at all

I don’t believe you

Something nice from P!nk lately..lovely song..

It's the Past That i'm Not Dare to Face

I believe everyone has their own past story I have my own too. A lot.
I was checking my hotmail today as my brother asked me to help him apply a membership in local Pathlab to get cheap rate for any screening package. I want to login to my account but I forgot the passwords and username. So, I have no choice but to check back all the email notification sent by Pathlab to me in my hotmail.

Too bad, my hotmail too much junk mail and important mail mixed all together thousands of them starting from early year of 2007. I have no choice but to scroll a page by a page to look for the email I want. Through the scrolling.. I saw a lot of email from friends, even boyfriends lol I wanted to click them and read , but.. in the end I changed my mind.

Say Im coward , chicken or lizard or whatever , you just name it.. Im just dont want to read back those emails as it bring back the sweet memories which turn sour in the end. People say, take bad memory as guidance for us to walk right in future.. But, of course, depends on what bad memories or bad experience.

Thank you readers.. whoever you are especially =.= and mojojo.. ahahaha both of you debating of what I need is it? I did have the motivation book actually..but never work on me =P I rather eat pill and sleep probably make me better then reading the book. LOL cuz my mind messy and whatever I read, it just cant get into my brain. When my mind messy, I will find place to pour it out, when I fail to find a place to pour out.. I will end up bla bla whining and grinning in the blog.
I admit that this is a very pathetic blog.. I do hope one day I manage to delete this one and create a happy blog instead.. but now, just not the right time at all. Probably you will say..there is no such thing as right time or not, it's the matter of guts blablabla taking actions blablabla.

Strong character people would go on tell me these which is not going to work any much on me. Day pass by a day after another day.. I know one day I will be happier I need time to find what I need =D

Im A proBlemAtic Person SomeOne Kill Me please

I am a person not worth living on this pity earth
I hurt people that Loved me and I doesnt even feel wanted to care more
I dont know how to divide my love and care among them but put all in just 1 , which I think It's Normal till the day I realize, it's not normal at all.

I know what I want , and I know I wont get it no matter how , as that's how life is. So I tend to accept just what come near me Which In the end I fail to do what I have promise myself. It's just not hurting me, but the worse is, it hurt the person which doesnt even deserve all this sufferings.

I wanted to pay back what I did wrong but somehow, I dont think there is a Turning Back in Anything Anymore. Hate me, Kill Me, Do as You Like as I know, I did a lot of crime and sins to All of yOu.

I know there is no Point of confessing it all here as It wont do anything much but at least I let the people who reading this pity blog of mine that I Am Not A Good Person As I Look At.

Tease me
Curse Me
I dont even care anymore.

I have been selfish in a good and bad way, stubborn ass in a good and bad way too and I wanted to change but cant. I feel uncomfortable in changing and therefore , I maybe change back to the normal Me.
A Bad News for some people, but also good news for some people.

Stop Torturing Yourself Dear and Love Yourself.

I dont Bother Liao

Yes!!!!!!!!!!! I dont bother anymore right now. Been tired follow people's finger to live my life. Makes me feel like Im a Zombie. I know what I want, I know what doesnt suit me.. I want to be Happy. Do I asked a lot ?

Huh!! Crazy bunch of zombies I live in with. Time to break the fcking Tradition ***Hole!!